song: Amelita Mi Amor

This is one of my favorite local songs [ Yey , DAVAO BANDS !! XD ] . It really reminds me of my Freshman days [ You`re The Pogi Boy ! XD ] This was sung by False Alarm . Sadly though , their band broke up because of their drummer [ Kuya Shlawie ] . Kuya Shlawie moved to Cebu because of his job . Awwww . The song`s still kewl though :D

BTW , I`m quite unsure of the lyrics since I can`t find its lyrics in the net XD

Amelita Mi Amor ~ False Alarm
Ola , señorita
Seeing you today without a single word to say [ *cough cough* ]
How could I be with you if I don`t know what to do?
I`ll still have to learn this time

Ola , señorita
How would you know if I don`t know how to express myself [ *cough cough* again ]
When I have the courage to look straight in your eyes
Then you come , I just dream it all

My bonita
Amelita (amelita mi amor!)
Just can`t hold myself just to look at you
My bonita
Amelia (amelita mi amor!)
Can I spend the last two months with you? [ *cough cough* agaaaaaain ]
Maybe leave your image on the corner of my eye
Maybe that way , there`s no way I`ll forget you

Ola , señorita
You`d make it out or I`ll just walk you home after school
I am in the car right now but I could write a song
That would make you && me a million fun

[ Repeat Chorus 2x ]
Amelita mi amor. .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

The Take Over , The BREAK`s Over !!!

Well , this blog post`s about what happened to me just a year ago . Exactly at this time && on this date . [ January 31 . 5.3o PM ]

I actually don`t know why I`m making this blog post . I think I just want to let my feelings out from my past . I`ve moved on though *duhrrrr* It`s just time for me to let this thing out . Normal acquaintances do not know this about me. .

Well..... *I won`t bother with the minuscule && unimportant details*
When I was still a happy && contented Junior *June `o7* , someone crossed through my roads. .&& that person was the least expected one that I would meet . He was cool . He was nice . He was handsome . He had a nice voice . He was quite friendly . . && he was the person whom I`ve hated since I was in 1st year . I hated him because of his arrogance . But his movements && actions told me that he was "interested" . So I brushed off my old prejudices of him && I tried to get to know him better .

So , *stupid me* I fell in love . I`m not sure why or how , I just did . I guess I was held under the charm of his personality . *stupid me again* . So during October `o7 , "it" was official .

The blissful ride didn`t last long though . Like normal human beings , he had bad habits . VERY bad habits . I tried changing them but no , I still couldn`t . That`s one thing we don`t see eye to eye on . Also , I was quite a jealous person . Envy seeped into my veins like dangerous poison .

&& oh , there`s also one more thing : He`s not fairing well with his academics .

So that was my situation with him . It wasn`t long until one of us broke it off , && it wasn`t me . He said he needed to concentrate on his studies [ He has a flat 74 in his Math subject ] && he`s got no more time for me [ he`s a busy Senior *daw* ] . Weird enough , I was okay with that .

Though he did all that he could , he never did got to march during their Graduation . He had summer classes while I was at the field with my batchmates for C.A.T. Summer Training .

So I`m just over everything . It just took me a little less than two months . I thought my heart would be longing for him but no , it didn`t . && I`m glad :)

IT`S BEEN A YEAR && I`M HELLA BETTER ^________^
I thank him for making me learn though .
:D

----------
"I`m happy you left me
I`m glad that you hurt me
It`s a MAGICAL FEELING
Knowing that you're not meant for me"
*smug* XD

BTW , this is for a friend of mine .
Weh >:)

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x
[ over over over ]

CSAT [ Ctue? XD ] Day Realizations

The 29th day of January 2oo8 [ today ] = College Scholastic Aptitude Test day . There are 4 [ four ] things that I`ve realized today :

1. It`s quite difficult taking an exam with colds and/or fever .
Lol . Nuff said XD

2. The course I`m going to take up in College is..........
Accountancy , then I`ll proceed to Law .
But my heart will always be tied to something computer related .
The CSAT made me realize this .
:D

3. There`s two less lonely people in the world .
I was with "them" awhile ago , after the CSAT . I couldn`t help feeling joyous for them because they`re just so cute together . I won`t name names though ;]]

&& the fourth......

4. Just Know That I Am Not Giving Up On You. .
Ahmmm . Nuff said right ? I just want him to know that he has my heart , though I don`t think he knows that .

That`s all for my realizations / enlightenments [ XD ] Ta ta . I still have to study for my Physux , err Physics Long Test XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x
[ *literally* sick && BRoken ]
@_@

poem && picture: Fade Away

Finally , finally , finally ! This time , it`s a REAL poem , not a compo XD

*linked to dA ^^

Fade Away
The rare smiles you wear
The melodious laugh I hear
Complete my heart
Trying to catch your eye
Infatuation is not that simple
My angel so true
Come with me
For flowers bloom
In this ethereal garden
Love me if you dare
Take my hand
Look me in the eyes
I wear a thousand masks
But with you ,
I am only myself
Learning && waiting isn`t that easy
But I will until our hearts fade as one...

&& yeah , I will wait...

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: Writist

I finally posted one of my poems ! Err scratch that . This is a song composition of mine . I made this during April `o7 . I don`t know exactly why I made this . I think I had a pen && some yellow paper by my side at that time XD

The song does not have a cover from my band yet though . Wah .

Writist = writer + artist .
:D

Writist ~ JaMartinez™
Have I ever told you
What`s on my mind these days?
Although I would keep on walking
I hopelessly search for you face

Drowning in your impeccable aura
Lost in an undefined time
The truth won`t tell me
If I should leave you behind

Chorus:
Give me a pencil
Please trace with pen
So that I can see the lines
For you to come back again
Burn these papers
Say what`s in your heart
Give me back my strength
Before you go tearing me apart

Tears have already dried
Memories have been left
But why is the unbearable pain
Still in this chest?

Spring turns to winter
Petals are slowly falling
The music is in line
To my heart slowly failing

[ repeat Chorus ]

I can`t help but say...
These tears fall for you..
Only for you....

[ repeat Chorus ]

And as I go through (pass me by)
These half-finished letters (kiss me goodbye)
Never again will I...

*I dedicate this to H.G. / Ebony though the song`s not really for him .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Intriguing ! @_@

Watch it . It`s kinda intriguing what beast is in that movie [ Cloverfield ] . Lol XD

Music && Lyrics .

Just thought of posting what was in the G.M. [ group message ] Sir Lactaoen / Dwardie sent :

"If I`m a writer ,
If I`m a poet ,
I might love you .
But never show it. ."
-- Milligram Smile by From Autumn To Ashes .

Cool lyrics :D

&& it reminds me to post some of my new poems here . But I can`t find it . Whappow @_@

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

songs: Kill The Drama || Make My Heart Attack

I`m listening to one of these songs right now . They`re sung by the same band [ Spitalfield ] , one of my favorite bands . My eldest brother told me about them when I was still a Freshman . I instantly liked the band cuz the songs really have nice rhythm && intro . The lyrics quite speak to me too :D

Kill The Drama ~ Spitalfield

i`d really like to see you there.
i can`t pretend like i don't care. because i really do yeah.
please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we`ll talk tomorrow [ we don`t ]
dream about me (about me), && don`t worry
we`ll be fine (be fine).

can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.
can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting you down.

you said that we were leaving, i asked "where we were going."
do you really (really)?
i just really do want everything to work out
like the motion picture endings.
what i really (really)..
what i really meant to say..to say

can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.
can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

what i don`t know cannot hurt me. [2x]

can you see me?
what i don't know can not hurt me.
(please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we`ll talk tomorrow.
dream about me, && don't worry
we`ll be fine.)

Make My Heart Attack ~ Spitalfield

I work backwards from nowhere don`t opposites attract?
I`ve got no friends and blank stares that could make my heart attack
&& I miss you don`t you miss me?

I don`t know just where to start it`s like,
when I`m without you things just fall apart && I will know

&& I know that you know I`ll be back I`ll be home
I`m tired of telling you something that you already know [ I know you know ]
&& I know that you know I`ll be back I`ll be home
I`m tired of telling you something that you already know

&& we`ll make it through
this if I had just one wish if my dreams all come true
then your dreams will too

&& I miss you && don't you miss me?
I don`t know just where to start it's like,
when I’m without you things just fall apart && I will know

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know

Somewhere out there

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something

I`m terribly missing someone right now. .Damn .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Done . Sealed . Signed.....Then Mistake .

Well well well . My buddy`s right . The lesson about prom is : "You shouldn`t go spreading around that your someone`s promdate when in fact , that person already has one."

But what I didn`t know is that "someone" is not a promdate stealer at all . My friend who told me that she was a promdate stealer just heard wrong . So errrr . @_@

I lol at myself XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Frailty :-"

This picture was taken after the wedding reception of my mom && dad last Saturday . Some bridesmaid forgot her bouquet so I took it XD

I edited that picture && the picture above came out . .


Frailty....
1 : the quality or state of being frail
2 : a fault due to weakness especially of moral character

Hmmmmmm .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Short Post :]

I`ll be posting some of the poems I made by this week or next week . I`m just too tired as of now to type it && post it here . But I will , I really will . Lol XD

* Yikes , it`s 2.45 AM . Time to sleep ! [ or is it ? ;)) ] *

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Desktop , Desktop .

Okayyyy . Current desktop .
Wallpaper = Photoshop creation of mine ^^ [ confusion . wa ]
Finally installed the rocketdock [ thanks Raiyunn ! XD ] *same na ako with Maui , Brux , Ryan , Maiikx && Jed @_@*

What`s on the dock :
1. My Computer [ for easy access ]
2. My Documents [" " ]
3. My Music [ I update this almost everyday ! XD ]
4. My Pictures [ cut + paste pics from cellphone ]
5. Mozilla Firefox 3 Beta 2 [ favorite browser . ai . ]
5. Adobe Photoshop CS3 [ favorite editing software ! :x ]
6. YumeRO *formerly OnaaRO* [ one of the games that won`t die in my system ]
7. RF Online [ blah blah . Accre forever . ngak ]
8. Warcraft III : Frozen Throne [ hmm hmm DoTA ]
9. O2Jam [ stress buster . reflex tester ! XD ]
10. Flyff Online [ also one of the games that won`t die in my system ]
11. Need For Speed Carbon [ addicting ! ♥ ]
12. Hitman Blood Money [ classic game ]
13. Limewire PRO 4.14.0 [ my DL master ]
14. Magic Set Editor [ when I`m bored ]
15. Winamp 5.52 [ classic music player . don`t like iTunes *lol* ]
16. Nero StartSmart [ my "kitchen" burner ! :D ]
17. DivX Player 6.7 [ video player. . ]
18. Xfire [ games games games games galore ! :D ]
19. Encarta [ every student`s need ;p ]
20. Microsoft Word 2oo7 [ main function for me : to type minutes for C.A.T. *XD* ]
21. Avira AntiVirus Professional Edition Classic [ my antivir ]
22. Recycle Bin [ my trash ]
23. Clock Thingy [ easy checking for time && date ]

not in deck [ but I always use this program ] :
24. Bit Torrent [ another DL master of mine ] XD


*what`s missing : Septerra Core 1 , Heroes of Might && Magic 3 , Starcraft && Counterstrike [ the games I`ve grown up with ]
Haii !! I miss those games .

&& oh , I`m not a PC addict or whatnot ;))

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Addiction ! XD

Yum Yum~ ♥

Wa . I`m currently addicted to Dewberry cookies . My seatmate Kuya Rendz brought some to school && offered me some . I told him that I don`t like Dewberry much . I tasted it before but didn`t like it @_@ But I still got a cookie from Kuya Rendz cuz I was hungry . When I ate it , it just tasted so good . I dunno why I didn`t like it before XD

So now , I`m addicted to it . Yeah ♥
[ or is there another reason why I`m addicted to it ? Wa @_@ ]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Two && A Half Decades ♥

o1.19.o7... at around 5.3o PM:
A trip to the hospital after school`s dismissal . Before that , I spent time with him . He just got back from their class retreat . I wrote him a letter 7 pages long. . .Enough about that . So I was in the hospital . I went up to the 2nd floor , where my cousins , aunts , uncles , brothers , father && my mother was . I went inside the room to see my mother , on the hospital bed . She`s injected to a dextrose filled with the formula for her chemotherapy . Mamee looks tired && drained but I still hugged && kissed her . I sat down on the couch && talk to my brother`s girlfriend , Ate Jenny . I borrowed her aviators && got vain . `Twas hard for me at that time to be hapee though I was hapee cuz of him . I caught a glimpse of my mom , who looked weak && so thin . I smiled && grinned to my camera but deep inside , I sincerely hoped that my mom would be alright. .

o1.19.o8....at around 4.oo PM:
My cousins , family friends , dad`s friends , mom`s friends && others are gathered outside of St. Paul`s church in Juna . The entourage was already gathered && arranged properly in the church . I turned && looked at my mom , who was just right behind me . She looked absolutely breathtaking . My mom never looked so radiant , so hapee . I smile && start to march as the entourage enters. .

Two same days on the same month but on a different year really is. . . . .ahm , different . Just compare what happened a year ago && just yesterday . It amazes me .

Well , 25 years is already a long time . It`s pretty amazing how a couple still stays together after that period of time . Just 3 months [ *ehem* ] felt like an eternity to me . There are more downs that ups , I can say . I just marvel at couples who have surpassed that kind of time . So I conclude. . . . . I am in awe of my parents .

They`ve been my strength && inspiration for 16 years . I love you guys ♥
25 years && counting. . . . . :D

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

D A M N .

My sim just got P.U.K.`d by my nephew .

Damn it .
Damn it .
Damn it !!

Errr ....

-- Macaroonie .

song: Don`t Wait

I was watching a One Tree Hill episode when I suddenly remembered this song . This song`s also featured in One Tree Hill :D

Don`t Wait ~ Dashboard Confessional
The sky glows
I see it shining when my eyes close
I hear your warnings but we both know
I`m gonna look at it again

Don't wait, don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
&& suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

You get one look
I'll show you something that the night took.
A bit to early for my own good
Now let's not speak of it again

Don't wait, don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
And suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

Don't wait, don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by
Don't wait
To lay your armor down [x5]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Laugh Out Loud :]]

Haha ! This pic`s from our "receiving room" . My mom hates the word "LoL". .but I don`t know why she has her jars arranged in that way XD

This is the hidden word found in our house . Weh XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

An Excerpt [ && Confessions (?) ] .

This is an excerpt from the essay we are discussing about in our English subject . It is entitled "What I Have Lived For" by Bertrand Russell . The paragraph I chose is the one about love . Ahm....
Here it is :

"I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy---ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness---that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what---at last---I have found."

I have the same thoughts && views as the author . I haven`t found love yet though . Well , I thought I already found it but I realize that "Love can`t really be love until two people share it together. It`s not the instant love that is noticeable nowadays ."...

I just hope that I could fix things with him . But I really want to concentrate on my studies [ only two months left *gasp* ] . I don`t want anything else confusing me as of the moment . *but sometimes I think that being like this because of him is worth it....*

Hopefully , I would settle this before or during the summer break . It would be quite bleak if I could settle "this" during the summer because I might *take note: might* be busy . The reasons why :

• family trip to Japan [ t e n t a t i v e ! my graduation gift *part I* from my parents ]
• "extreme" sports tripping [ skim && skate . i miss doing these so much ]
• violin lessons [ once again , i`ll play . i miss this too ]
• gig/s with my band *hopefully*
• help my friend with his "business" ;]]
• DJ summer job thingy with Deannoink XD
• practice driving ! :P

So there . Do I have time for "fixing" things && taking a chance on love once more ? Hmm . If only God would allow me . Wa...

-- Macaroonie .

song: Define

Hmpf . I`m in a "badtrip" cuz of SOME PEOPLE [ or is it PERSON ?!? ] . They [ or is it SHE / HE ?!? ] are [ is ?! ] just so immature . Damn it . This song calms me down whenever I feel this way . .

Define ~ Hilera
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

I’ve heard it all before
I’ve seen this ship a thousand times
Oh, I’ve seen it all before [ && I`m sick of it ]
It’s tall && harder when they fall

Say hello, it’s me, let’s go
I’m thinking your thoughts and you’re thinkin’ mine [ I just hope so ]
Oh, it’s you, hello, let’s go
I’ve tried so hard but again I

Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

Touch me, baby, I’ll take you home
I know a friend, I know a friend
Touch me, baby, I’ll take you home
Define, define, define

I’ve heard it all before
I’ve seen this ship a million times
Oh, I’ve seen it all before [ && I`m sick of it ]
It’s tall && harder when they fall

Say hello, it’s me, let’s go
I’m thinking your thoughts and you’re thinkin’ mine [ I just hope so ]
Oh, it’s you, hello, let’s go
I’ve tried so hard but again I

Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

-- Macaroonie [ gi.bad3p . pota.. ]

Ebony && Ivory Symphony :x

*linked to dA :]

I WAS BORED DURING ONE C.L.E. PERIOD *free time* XD
so I decided to take an "emo" [ accdg. to Jikko Fernandez ] picture of "my" earphones .
XD

--for Ebony ♥ :]


*the black earphones belong to my Psychologist, Lean Arcena .
the white sorta like an iPod shuffle thingy for my cellphone belongs to me ^^

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Oni-chan :]

The 14th of January, 2oo8 .
It is on that day that someone close to my heart turns seventeen . He`s one of the best listeners I know . He sticks up to the saying "Patience is a virtue" . Recently , he`s been helping me with "love" problems . . .

Who is this person , you ask ? Well , he`s none other than my "Kuya" , Rendell Jed G. Tagalog (:

We met way back when we were still Sophomores . We were put *unluckily* in the Honor`s Section [ 2 ~ Gonzaga ] . I don`t really remember how we became close , I just know that around the 3rd Quarter, we were inseparable . I nicknamed him "Kuya" because his birthday`s on January XD

Sadly , when we became Juniors , we don`t spend time much with each other anymore . We just have those occasional "Hi"`s with each other. .

I`m glad we became classmates this school year . We rebuilt our once-close friendship && now we`re as close as ever ^^

I just send my best wishes && blessings to my ever dearest "Kuya" on his birthday . I know he`ll have a bright future ahead of him . He`s one of my guy friends whom I keep close to my heart . I`m sure God will shower him with more blessings :]

To Kuya Rendz : Hapee bdae BRO ! Matanda ka na at sana mag.tangkad ka na . Ngak3 . Thanks for always listening to me ! Lalo na pag.about kay. . . . .X . wa . Lahbyoo Kuya :]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Lulz wut ?

Wait , what am I doing ?
I don`t think I should bid goodbye yet again .
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
What da. . .

to Shobe Jemiel : BASAHIN ANG NEWSPAPER ! WA ! NANG.LIGID NA KO DIRI ! NA.UNSA NKO SHOB ?!?! POTEK . @_@
GO BABES && HONEYBUNCH . WAAAA . XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x [ ? ]

Memory .

Copy-pasted a crush survey thingy from my former classmate , John Carlo dela Cruz *haha* . Just a little tribute to Ebony / HG . Wa . I edited some of my answers... XD

answered on : Saturday, 12 January, 2008 at 9:28 PM

CRUSH SURVEY :
1.)Sinong mas matangkad sa inyo ng
crush mo?
- siya . obviously . waaaa .

2.)Ano ang kulay nya?
- ahm... normal . moreno . i think . wa .

3.)sino mas matanda sa inyo?
- siya -___-"

4.)Kailan mo sya last nakita?
- yisturdi .

5.) Kailan mo sya last nkausap?
- ahm . next question ? *T_T*

6.) Close kayo?
- in some aspect daw . wa .

7.)Ano klase buhok nya?
- gna.follow ang prescribed haircut . haha..

8.)Magaling sumayaw?
- ahm ewan ...

9.)Magaling kumanta?
- inde raw sabi ng friend q . wa . LOL .

10.) Saan siya magaling?
- sa isang subject na favorite ko...*smug*

11.)Alam ba nya na crush mo sya?
- i `m xur na YES ...

12.) Kilala ka ba nya?
- yup

13.) Alam nya name mo?
- uu .

14.)Nka text mo na ?
- nung xmas break ...

15.)May karibal ka?
- meron daw . mrmi pa gni . wa .

16.) Gaano ktagal mo na sya crush?
- 4 months , i think .. since sept or oct

17.)Saan mo sya unang nkta?
- school ..

18.) Paano kyo nagkkilala?
- ahw . sa isang school event ..[ C.S.I.P. ] wa.

19.) Sasabihin mo ba sknya?
- alam man nia ... ngak .

20.) Anong pangalan nya?
- *@)@&(!#(@*%$(!^)^@ . un na un .

21.)Narinig mo na ba boses nya?
- yup pero mga twice or thrice lang . ung
nag.hi xa sa akn..

22.)Kilala ba siya ng mga friends mo?
- ahw uu . wa

23.) E kilala mo ba mga friend nya?
- yup . wa .

-- Macaroonie :(

Mystery :]

Decode it . Find out what it says . I dare you . *haha* XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: The Adventure

Just another song I found unplayed in my Music Library / Store . Has nice lyrics . && also a kewl band *Tom Delonge [ former vocalist of the already broken up band Blink 182 ] is the vocalist of Angels && Airwaves* :]

The Adventure ~ Angels && Airwaves
I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up && I`m alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I`m the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that`s dead shall be re-grown,
&& your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

Hey, oh, here I am,
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin .

Any type of love - it will be shown,
like every single tree reach for the sky.
If you're gonna fall,
I'll let you know,
that I will pick you up
like you for I,
I felt this thing,
I can't replace.
Where everyone was working for this goal.
Where all the children left without a trace,
only to come back, as pure as gold,
To recite this all.

Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.

I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me

Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me),
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin (do this with me).
Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me).
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin ,
life's waiting to begin .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Everybody`s in a [ prom ] Frenzy @_@

Damn it . I just found out that the raffle would be this Wednesday , January 16, 2oo7 . Although I don`t quite believe that it would REALLY be on that day , I have to find myself a prom date . A lot of Seniors whom I know got quite rattled cuz they don`t have a prom date yet && they don`t want to be raffled . Woopsies .

So that little piece of news made everybody tense && nervous . Not me though , I just got a LITTLE nervous [ haha ] . Oh well . Just goes to show that Prom news affects a lot of people . Weh XD

-- Macaroonie .

I.M.Y . I.L.Y. ? <33

Aw . I just missed surfing through one of my favorite sites when I was still in 3rd year , which is explodingdog.com . The owner of that site is Sam . He makes digital art out of the titles that you e-mail to him . He does pretty good , kewl && funny pictures , I can say :]

Ahm , this is for him though . Hmmmmmm .

"what can i say ? ♥"

"i think you understand. . ♥"


"i don`t know what to do anymore ."

"i wonder if you miss me as much i miss you ."


"&& if you were with me tonight ,
I`d sing to you just one more time .
A song for a heart so big ,
God wouldn`t let it live ."
-- May Angels Lead You In ~ Jimmy Eat World

Woops . Are you missing someone , Jam ? Lulz .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: Butterfly Carnival

I was checking my Music Store again [ weekly inventory ] when I saw this particular song . This reminds me of my days as a Freshman . The lyrics are nice too ! My favorite song of the Philippine band , Sandwich :D

Butterfly Carnival ~ Sandwich
So you say you're higher
Eve of fire don`t regret your stars
But that you steal the pipe &&
Know the kisses, oh you play your part

But you feel you`ll find it
no you`ll find it
Don`t forget your heart
Because your soul is burning
Time is turning No one stays the same..

(Who! who! ... who! [10x])

Inside my mind you tracing
Face to facing one into your wings
Regressing eyes are hallow,
Soul is shallow, oh you drain my heart

But you feel you`ll find it
No you`ll find it
Don`t forget your heart
Because your soul is burning
Time is turning No one stays the same..

Butterfly (carnival) [7x]
Butterflyyyyyy...YEAH!!

(Who! who! ..who! [13x])

-- Macaroonie .

Something Random. . .

I NEED NEW EARPHONES .

That`s it .
*bow* XD

-- Macaroonie .

song: Para Sa Akin

This is one of my favorite Bossa Nova songs by Sitti Navarro . Enjoy ^^,

Para Sa Akin ~ Sitti Navarro

Kung ika`y magiging akin
Di ka na muling luluha pa
Pangakong di ka lolokohin
Ng puso kong nagmamahal

Kung ako ay papalarin
Na ako`y iyong mahal na rin
Pangakong ikaw lang ang iibigin
Magpakailanman

[chorus]
Di kita pipilitin
Sundin mo pang iyong damdamin
Hayaan nalang tumibok ang puso mo
Para sa akin

Kung ako ay mamalasin
At mayron ka nang ibang mahal
Ngunit patuloy ang aking pagibig
Magpakailanman

[repeat chorus]

Kung ako ay papalarin
Na ako`y iyong mahal na rin
Pangakong ikaw lang ang iibigin
Magpakailanman

[repeat chorus 2x]

Para sa akin

Woops , I can relate again to this song . Lulz .

-- Macaroonie .

Sympathy && Empathy .

SYMPATHY :
a. an affinity, association, or relationship between persons or things wherein whatever affects one similarly affects the other
b. mutual or parallel susceptibility or a condition brought about by it
c. unity or harmony in action or effect sympathy with the scheme as a whole — Edwin Benson>

EMPATHY :
a. the imaginative projection of a subjective state into an object so that the object appears to be infused with it

b. he action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the feelings, thoughts, and experience of another of either the past or present without having the feelings, thoughts, and experience fully communicated in an objectively explicit manner.

To put in simple terms :
Sympathy is feeling FOR someone while empathy is feeling WITH someone .


Are you wondering why I posted this here ? Well , my seatmate forever [ Kuya Rendz ] told me that he is sympathetic with me . Then I told him my definition of sympathy && told him that he should be empathetic with me since he is also experiencing my situation right now . It`s just that I want to clarify the true meaning of sympathy && empathy. . XD

-- Macaroonie .

Roller Coasters. . && Mystery Girl .

Awts . I`m tired of "roller coasters" . && no , it`s not the junkfood .

This roller coaster I`m on has "up" moments . It leaves me in a sense of light-weightiness && plasters a big smile on my face . But not for long `cuz as roller coasters go , there`s also the "down" part . That makes me want to regurgitate && also makes me want to get off the damn thing .

Problem is , I can`t get off that "roller coaster" , even though the ride`s dizzying , sickening but enjoyable at the same time [ ironic ] . There`s nothing to do , I`m so into this "roller coaster" .

As for Mystery Girl , I haven`t a clue to who she is . So I`m feeling screwed && confused :-/

*wah , gets ni Kuya Rendz [ seatmate forever ] && Lean [ ex-convict na Inchik ] ung roller coaster na part . .

-- Macaroonie .

Technology Vs. Reality [ An "Emo" Conversation ]

I had a somewhat deep and unexpected conversation with "someone" . Let`s nickname that someone as "Mr. R".. I`ll first tell how my morning began, then up to the conversation.... *scene fades, flashback thingy* [ lulz ]

My morning started out as any normal school day would go , considering I only had an hour of sleep [ Damn IT Project ] . That`s why I woke up kinda late , then my mom left me [ She wanted to hear mass at the Chapel ] . So my dad was the one who drove me to school . To summarize events , my morning didn`t quite start right. . . @_@

So I arrived at school with no intention of enjoying the day . Adding to what I feel , I missed the old guards of Ateneo whom I`ve been friends with since I was an elementary student . . I miss the guard who`d always tell my bro : "Martinez ! Zipper nimo, open!!" lulz . But haii. . .

Anyway ! When I arrived at my classroom , I just dropped my bag hard on my chair , sat down && dropped my head on the armrest. .Yeah , you can say I was in a "badtrip" . Let`s just fast forward to that conversation :

* setting : 2nd Period [ C.L.E. ] . Sir Jack Lovino = teacher . He`s lecturing but I`m not listening . LOL .
Me : Gehd . Isang oras lang gud ang tulog ko . 4 A.M. na ako naka.tulog. .tas 5 A.M. naka.gising T__T
Mr. R : Wah ! Atik Jam ? Bakit ?
Me : Dahil dun sa I.T. Project . Samok masyado . Tas parang naka.iyak pa talaga ako mga 2.3o ng umaga dahil sa proj kay naga.save ako ng forms , then bigla nag.pop up ung "Visual Basic 6.0 needs to close...." na window . Tapos 1/2 of the forms pa lang talaga ang na.save ko . So parang naulit ang lahat. . .
*someone interrupts while I was talking , saying "Sorry" to me [ haha LEAN ;) ] *
Mr. R : Awwww . Ok lang yan Jam. .
Me : Huy , may i.share pa pala ako ! May na.dream gud ako dun sa isang oras ko na tulog. .Weird gud un .
Mr. R : Anu nangyari sa dream mo , Jam ?
*take note ha , DREAM LANG ANG SINABI KO KAY MR. R*
Me : Kasi ganito daw un , galing ako Gate 8 . tas papunta ako Gate 1. .then nakita ko "siya" pati si ___ && ____ . Naga.usap daw sila sa isa`t isa . Then pumunta ako banda sa kanila . Tas nag.ask man "siya" na : "Saan ka punta Jam?" . Tas sabi ko na : "Punta ako sa isang kompyuteran.." Tas nag.gnian "siya" na : "Sabay na lang tayo!" Tas nag.bye2 kami kay ___ && ___ . Then sabay kami...
Tas grabe raw sharing namin . Karami daw naming same interests && stuff. . .
Tas bigla man yan "siya" nag.sabe na : "Jam! McDo muna tayo!" , gnian ako na : "Okay . Babuya nimo uy!!" .
Then nasa McDo na kami , eating && all. .Then nag.open up "siya" bigla . Nag.share2 siya about sa problems niya ..
Tas nag.gnian "siya" bigla na : "Jam, you really wanna know what`s bothering me right now?" . Then nag.sabi ako na : "Hmm, ok lang . Sige go." Then he said :

"There`s this girl whom I really like . As in REALLY like . && I don`t know how to tell her . && feeling ko pa nga , may iba siyang gusto.. Friends kami pero sadly , di masyado naga.pansinan sa school...I really want to tell her Jam . Para matapos na ang lahat at para na rin malaman ko kung anu feelings niya.."

Tas sabi ko raw na :

"First of all , don`t ever think na may gustong iba ang crush mo . Madali ka kasi mawalan ng pag-asa kung ganun . Don`t worry . In time , you`ll find strength to tell her what you feel ."

Then he said :

"Thanks for the advice Jam . But I`m already telling my feelings to her right now. . . ."

*gasp* Weird noh ?? @_@

Mr. R : What ? Un talaga ang dream mo Jam ? Sign gud yan. .Hehe . Pero I believe na baliktad niyan ang mangyayari .
Me : Kaya gani . It sucks. . . .
Me : Masakit gud ang situation ko ngayon . Hanggang ganun lang kami.. When we are here in the four corners of the school , it`s as if wala kaming "friendship" or what .
Mr. R : Bitaw Jam . Hanggang sa "technology" lang kayo . Pero pag.reality na , wala na. . .
Me : *sad face* Masakit gud talaga. .Pero I won`t give up gud .
Mr. R : Baliktad ata situation niyo ah ?! Parang ikaw ang lalake. .
Me : Bitaw2 ! Weird talaga uy .
*Mr. R shares something about his love life , which I can`t put here*


To that Mr. R : Thankyou thankyou thankyou for listening to me :]

-- Macaroonie .

song: There`s No One Like You

Ahhh ! The song that`s been playing on my mind since Saturday [ LSS ] XD . This is probably caused by playing too much Guitar Hero: Rocks the 80`s . w00t . I hella love the intro of the lead guitar here !! :]]

No One Like You ~ The Scorpions
Girl Boy, it`s been a long time that we`ve been apart
Much too long for a man girl who needs love
I miss you since I`ve been away
Babe, it wasn`t easy to leave you alone
It`s getting harder each time that I go
If I had the choice, I would stay

There`s no one like you
I can`t wait for the nights with you
I imagine the things we`ll do
I just wanna be loved by you [ haha ]

No one like you
I can`t wait for the nights with you
I imagine the things we`ll do
I just wanna be loved by you [ haha ]

Girl Boy, there are really no words strong enough
To describe all my longing for love
I don`t want my feelings restrained
Ooh, babe, I just need you like never before
Just imagine you`d come through this door
You`d take all my sorrow away

There`s no one like you
I can`t wait for the nights with you
I imagine the things we`ll do
I just wanna be loved by you [ haha ]

No one like you
I can`t wait for the nights with you
I imagine the things we`ll do
I just wanna be loved by you [ haha ]

No one like you ♥♥

* Leandro Victor Arcena`s my idol when it comes to Guitar Hero :P
To Lean : I hate you forever , Konsul ! haha . No one like H I M , right ? ;]]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Guitar Zero XD

Just a photo of me with my gee-tar ZERO . Heeeeeeeeee :P

BTW , Guitar Hero`s really addictive XD

Inspired or Expired ? XD [ Ebony && Ivory 'portrait' ]

*this is linked to my dA :]

Uh . This is a drawing I made on this oh-so-plain && boring Friday . In nearly all of the subjects , we did almost nothing [ related to that subject , that is ] XD

I started making this at around Physics time . My first drawing is at the back of the 4th Quarter Scope && Sequence for p6 but I redrew cuz I didn`t liek it. . :0

Anyway , I finished it at around the end of our English period . This is also the reason why I didn`t get perfect on Sir Vun`s quiz . I was concentrating much on making this drawing , so I got a wrong answer for the last number . Awwww . [ 3/4 divided by 7 . Errrr ] But oh well . At least it`s finished . I even put Ed`s black && white ballers there to match the "theme" . XD

Go ahead , just called me inspired ♥♥ :D

PS:
• I exaggerated my height here a "little" bit. .*cough* XD
• Gawd , I didn`t draw his hair right !! Damn it . @_@
• I only drew this using one ballpen !! [ the PHAT pink one one the left side of my p6 notebook XD ]
• I guess I was just missing someone . Hmm . Hmm .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Friggin Voice Conference XD

Ugh . I must get a mic . I just had a voice conference with a LOT of people. .[ I actually don`t remember some of them XD ] Chubby Rosete , Jikko Fernandez && Mark Zafaralla kept on talking with their mics . I want one too !! LULZ .

MARK LOVES JIKKO .
MARK FERNANDEZ .
JIKKO ZAFARALLA .
AMEN !
*yey for GHEY love*
hormones hormones ! @_@

Story of a Girl :]

Well ! This is the reason why I only had 2 hours of sleep before the 1st "school" day of 2oo8 .
*Okay Brux , you were right . My PC-ing WAS the reason for my almost sleepless night . I just lied cuz you might`ve called me an adik again. .XD*

Anyway , I just had fun designing && designing . Maybe I was just ecstatic cuz of the fact that I`ll be seeing someone again . Hmmm :)
Uh , it`s not really something praiseworthy but I like how I designed it :P

BTW , I made this for a childhood friend of mine :]]




click && you`ll go to my deviantArt :]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: The Promise

Wapahk ! My last blog post before school starts again *ugh* . Oh well . *This blog post`s kinda short @_@*

I just recently watched Napoleon Dynamite [ one of my favorite movies ] && heard this song . I just thought of posting it here . w00t ! :D

*I`m happy happy happy happy ♥♥x :D*
------ Err , that was random XD

The Promise ~ New Found Glory feat. Chris Carraba, vocalist of Dashboard Confessional
[ originally by When In Rome ]

I`m sorry , but I`m just thinking of the right words to say .
I know they don`t sound the way I planned them to be.
But if you wait around a while , I`ll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will...

If you need a friend,
don`t look to a stranger,
You know in the end,
I`ll always be there.

&& when you`re in doubt,
&&when you're in danger,
Take a look all around,
&& I`ll be there.

I`m sorry, but I`m just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise you)
But if you wait around a while, I`ll make you fall for me,(I promise you)
I promise, I promise you I will. [ I really will. . . ]

When your day is through,
&& so is your temper,
You know what to do,
I`m gonna always be there.

Sometimes if I shout,
it`s not what's intended.
These words just come out,
with no gripe to bear.

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise you)
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,(I promise you)
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise you)
And if I had to walk the world, to make you fall for me,(I promise you)
I promise you, I promise you I will.

I gotta tell ya, I need to tell ya, I gotta tell ya, I gotta tell yaaaa ...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise you)
But if you wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,(I promise you)
I promise you, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise you)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise you)
And if I have to walk the world to make you fall for me,(I promise you)
I promise you, I promise you I will ...
I will...
I will...
I will...

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x