Never Ending, Uhm.. Endings .

Woosh . I haven`t written in my blog for quite some time now . So here are some updates :

Throwing Away My Army Greens ?
To summarize everything up , the Ateneo High school had the Joint Scouting && CAT Closing Ceremony last Friday , March 14, 2oo8 . It meant that us officers had graduated && is free of our duties . Weh XD

The fun came after the ceremony . Us officers had our "salu-salo" / get together . We had a program full of "performances" && award giving . The best performance was from the guy officers . They danced the Soulja Boy && had "joke time" . Haha . Every officer was given an award .. Mine was "San Pedro`s award" / "St. Peter`s award" . Kudos to Sir Lactaoen for that @_@

But although I`m ecstatic that I finally have no more responsibilities in CAT [ as if I have a really tiring job , I`m only the 2nd Battalion`s S1 XD ] , I will really miss all the moments us officers had together . Through all the one hour or more in attention , memories as trainees , all the corrective measures we`ve received , all the wounds we received [ Silent Drill haha ] , or whatnot , I thoroughly enjoyed every moment . COCC-01 [ minus two ] has finally graduated . Woohoo ! But I don`t think Imma through my army greens just yet ;]]
* an end to CAT *


No More Gossip For Me
I just finished watching all of the Gossip Girl episodes of Season 1 . Ugh , I want Season 2 to start already ! Haha [:
* an end to watching my favorite TV Series *


Checklist.. Err , check ?
I found my personal checklist awhile ago while I was rummaging through my cabinet [ I was finding my poem notebook ] . This is what was in it :

• Survive Filipino shooting
• Finish Investigatory project Powerpoint
• Type Minutes
• Finish && do good on the last seven exams of your High school life
• Clear your Clearance
• Graduate!!! :x

Uhh . Only two things are not checked yet , the last two items on my list . Wooosh , graduation .. April 5, 2oo8 . Weh .
* an end to checklists *


It Spreads Like Poison ! :0

Shit . The virus in my PC must have really spread cuz my PC`s all busted . Damn . Does that mean I won`t be having those summer days without sleeping , just playing ? w00t . Now that would really....suck -___-"
But we have a family technician who`s really good at this stuff && I wanna learn from him [ Go Kuya Mark ! XD ] . I learned how to do hard drive to hard drive data transfer cuz of him . Kewl XD

I just found out that my motherboard`s dead . Damn . The motherboard`s heating too much && stuff . Tsk . I must really take care of my PC after it`s repaired again @_@
* an end to my "healthy" PC *

Woops . Clarification. .
For everyone`s clarification , I`m not hating Mr. Ebony or whatever he calls himself in my previous blogpost [ The Paramore song ] . I actually posted it for my friend who hates her ex boyfriend . So I got caught in between . Woosh .

Actually , my song for Mr. Ebony right now is Miracle! by Paramore .
Lyrics that I can truly relate to~ :

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you && I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill my fears
But have I told you, have I

* an end to some people`s understanding *


That`s all for now .
Imma abstain from using the PC for during this Holy Week . w00t .
Imma also be offline during Black Saturday && Easter Sunday .
My family && cousins are going to have our annual overnight .
Weh :D

Hope everyone has a blessed holy week†

-- M i R a i
[ 22 ♥ ]

song : She Cries

*sigh* . I remember one solitary afternoon with a close friend of mine [ BTW , this happened a year ago ] . She took out && turned on her iPod && offered me one of the earphones . She scrolled her myriad of songs && pressed "Play" on a particular song . It was this song .

On that afternoon , her boyfriend just broke up with her...without any particular reason . We both cried on that day . Whappow . I just wanna share this song . It`s pretty cool . Enjoii...

She Cries ~ Rufio
Gone again she said
heading for the longest road
One too many times
He's beaten you down to the bone

So you sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
All alone
Just stay away
Stay away

Weakened from the pain
that he left inside your heart
Fallin' in the rain
cause your whole life has fall'n apart

So you sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
All alone
Just stay away

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

See this is real
She doesn't feel
Lonely hearts
Shattered dreams
There's nothing better in this place
Nothing but memories
in your mind

Sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
On the road
you sail away

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

[Note: There is probably another version of this song with the words "Lose that hate inside" instead of "Filled with hate inside"]

Last two exams tomorrow . *sigh*

-- M i R a i .
[ almost done playing the greatest game ever played :( ]

Paranoia ? @_@

"Paranoia hits you suddenly like an arrow hitting a target. It seeps into your veins then turns into a venomous poison we call Jealousy."
-- by : ME .

I don`t really know why I made that quote . I guess nowadays , I`ve been talking to people who are quite paranoid at this thing && jealous because of that thing .

Maybe I`m paranoid && jealous too . But if I really am , why ?
@_@


Anyway ...
I take back what I said about prom .
I truly had fun ! It was the best , most memorable , second && last prom ever . I even became a nominee / candidate for Prom Queen . [ @_@ ] Now that was totally unexpected XD

My tablemates are as crazy as ever . I won our eating contest . I finished all of the food in my plate . Talk about glutton eh ? @_@

One of the main reasons my prom was fun && memorable :

some words are engraved inside the ring .
*XD*

* only some people can understand why XD


But the prom was sort of sad as well ..
I remember Sir Lactaoen`s group message before the prom :
"Prom ..
The beginning of the end"
It means that prom marks the almost end of our Senior Life *sigh* .

Now , I really have to make the most out of the days left .

w00t w00t .

-- M i r a i
[ same lines ,
same lies ? ♥ ]

One - Zero - Zero

MIRAI`S DRAMACHINE FINALLY HITS THE ONE - ZERO - ZERO POST :D

Whew ! My hundredth post here in my so called "blog" . I never thought I`d reach this . I`ve also decided to stay here && to not delete this , despite the "memories" . Hmm... What to write , what to write [ or what to type XD ]

First thing`s first ! UPDATES . Weh .

Cupid Gave Me My Own Spiderman
When I heard [ or read ] that Mr. Ebony was giving up , Ms. Ivory [ I ] did too [ without me realizing it ] Eow . But then , Stupid Cupid hit my poor && unconscious heart waaaay before Valentine`s Day . It was around early January when I officially met "him" [ nickname : three ] . I think I`ve met him since I was still a Sophomore , because he was my good friend`s *cough* classmate .

Anyway , around January 8 or 9 , we were introduced to each other . Needless to say , we really hit off , even though we "just met" . We talked mostly about computer games . Suddenly my bestfriend [ Ms. Smowl ] said that I was a pervert *but she actually said manyak* [ I totally LOL at that~ XD ] . Mr. Three just laughed . When it was time for me to go home , Mr. Three said : "Bye Jamanyak!" . I`ll never forget that . But then , he had a girlfriend . So I was kinda down about that . I could safely he was my bestfriend...a really sweet one . We played Flyff together .[ I influenced him ] . I was sooooo comfortable with him cuz I could be myself . So to cut the story , Cupid broke off the arrow between Three && his gf && hit me instead . Waaaaa (:

V-Day , May-day [ ? ]
Well well well . I never thought I`d be super duper really totally 1ooo% this much happy during Valentine`s Day [ a.k.a. Single Awareness Day ] . Starting from the fact that I got to be a student teacher during that day , that was already more than enough to make me jump for joy [ lmao ] . I taught Chemistry in the 3 - Pignatelli classroom [ a.k.a. my promdate`s classroom ] && in the 3 - Borgia classroom [ where Deanno`s && Donico`s promdates are ] . I had fun during the Chemistry sessions because I was with my co-teacher , Raymond Binoya [ third year classmate ] . We gave a 2oo item quiz to the class ! Weh ! [ It`s okay if we are bombarded with the word "sadists" . lol ]

I got to "teach" in my own classroom too ! My classmates && I just had our research for Physics in the I.T. Lab . I let them surf the net . Weh XD

The other thing that made me so happy was just a simple rose . It was just one , surely bought outside the gates of our school . What made it special was that Mr. Three gave it (: ♥

Promenade , You Say?
In just T - some hours , our batch is going to experience our second && last Prom . I agree with my buddy , I`m not that excited . I just want our periods to be shortened because of the practice XD . I was actually grateful for the Prom practice cuz it gave us a chance to "bond" with our promdates . Moreover , my tablemate`s my good friend && classmate [ Miki ] .

1st Practice : Miki , Joeann , Jairah && I just kept on talking with each other . We didn`t talk to our promdates at all . [ lol ]
2nd Practice : Backstab session with our promdates ! `Twas fun though . First "bonding" session XD
3rd Practice : Ugh , the sunlight was trippin` on us . During the first part of the practice Our table [ 23o ] was moved to the front . We already have nicknames for each other :
Me = adik
Earl [ my promdate ] = emo
Miki [ my tablemate && classmate ] = mother nature
Ryan [ Miki`s promdate ] = Zac Efron
*only some people can understand why XD*

My promdate dared us three to stand while the practice was going on... So we did do that . It was kinda funny && embarrassing because some people were looking at us && we just kept on laughing . `Twas a "cute" bonding moment though XD

Prince [ Majoy`s promdate && Earl`s classmate ] kept on teasing me to Earl . IDK why @_@

Oh oh oh ! Go for the REJESTER . Nyahahaha XD

I Didn`t Say Hate
Well well well . It was supposed to be a spear . Lol . Anyway , I`m not intending to aim any sharp-edged weapon of hate to someone . But I DID consider that though . Then I thought I`d be so childish if I handled it in that way . So like NVM . I just hope that someone && I could still be friends though . I really have to talk [ heart-to-heart ? ] to that someone before we graduate ... *sigh*

Boards && Brooms For Fun
Flyff is LAHB . aNNic is LAHB . Macaroonie™ is LAHB . Spread the Flyff LAHB ! *bow* XD

Oooh , Numbers
I just found out yesterday that I passed the CSAT [ Yey for me ] . I am now officially legible to enroll as a student in the Ateneo de Davao Jacinto campus . What`s the course I am taking up , you ask ? Let`s just say I`m readying a lot of hankerchiefs because I`d be immersing my self in the world of Math && numbers . That is teh l33t [ XD ]

B.S. Whaaat ?
Ahm no , the meaning of B.S. in my update title is not Bachelor of Science . It`s BUSY SUMMER . I just realized that I`ll be hella busy this vacation season .

Imma....
• take up violin lessons again [ with Shobe Jemiel && Ahia Don ]
• practice driving [ 2oo8`s the year that I`ll finally get my Student`s Permit ! ^^ ]
• be in the shooting range with my bro [ kewl sport for a girl ]
• skimboard once more [ fave water sport ]
• be a DJ with Deanno [ I think ]
• have gig/s with my band [ I thoroughly hope ]
• help my friend with his business
• take a trip to the land of Hongkong [ Disneyland , here I come ! :9 ]
• take up a graphic web designing class [ hmm , still tentative ]
&& • devote my extra time to gaming . Waw . It`s really a B.S. XD

Adios To The Green [ ? ] Fields
Ugh . In two to three weeks , us Seniors will take the last 6 or 7 exams in our High School life . In two months [ ? ] , we will leave behind the green [ ? ] fields of our Alma Matter , Ateneo de Davao University . Honestly , I do not want to graduate yet . My bros say that that`s just a natural feeling . High School`s so fun-filled . I wouldn`t wanna trade this memory for anything else . [ Fudge , I`m getting emo O_O ] . I remember my 1 - Borgia days[ still FRESH XD ] .. 2 - Gonzaga [ Honor`s class ftw @_@ ] moments .. 3 - Canisius memories [ my MOST fun-filled year ] .. my time spent in 4 - Gonzaga . Awww .

But I can`t stop from April 5 from coming . So adios to the High School building I`ve stayed in for almost 4 years . I`ll still be a blue-blood though XD

Suspended For PDA ;]]
That`s not what you think it is . It`s just the name of my group of friends whom I hang out with most of the time . We are called PDA because always tease each other of doing PDA [ Public Display of Affection ] . Every girl has a guy "partner" in the group . We`re only 6 members but we have a lot of fun together . Everybody accepts every person in the group as who they are :D

To them : I`ll never forget FEBRUARY 15 , 2OO8 ♥
wahaha XD

Papa Said Play :D
Soooo ... My first idea of my Graduation gift didn`t pull through . It was a trip to Japan . Then my mom said that a trip to Japan is like a trip to a country in Europe . So NVM [ T_T ] . I had finally thought of an alternative Grad. gift , a Playstation Portable .

I am totally in love with PSP`s [ don`t mark me as weird though ] XD I mean , it`s like an iPod , with 1ox the power . You can play games , watch movies , listen to music , surf the internet or connect with other PSP users through WLAN . It`s pretty cool for me . && I`m just sorta kinda jealous of my bro who has a PSP [ XD ] .

Can You Keep A Secret ?
The song Secret by The Pierces is currently my LSS [ Last Song Syndrome ] . This song was featured in Gossip Girl , 1oth episode *Hi , Society* . It was the song playing during the part when they were dancing the cotillion . I can`t find its full length song in imeem though . Imma upload it next time XD

Being Grown Up Isn`t Half As Fun As Growing Up
My all time favorite quote/lyric from the song In This Diary by The Ataris . I sorta wanted this to be the graduation song of our batch but our grad. song will be a composition . I still love this song though :D

That`s all for my updates .
I`m just going to put two pictures that depict what`s going in on my life right now :

1st Picture :

* something I made for Mr. Three . I think two or three weeks ago (:
[ linked to dA ]


2nd Picture :

* another picture from explodingdog.com [ I just love his works XD ]
The title of that pic is : "Another awesome day"
I love it XD

Whew .
That`s all for my 1ooth post .
:D

-- M i r a i
*I`ll be posting as Mirai from now on XD*
[ elated ♥ ]

There Goes 30 :]

I got bored early in the morning so I answered this survey . I had to name 3o people . Haha . I had fun though XD
Bear with the survey , most of my answers are in Tagalog . Lol .

Can you name 30 people you can think
of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath
until you write the names of all 30
people.*NO CHEATING*

IN NO SPECIFIC ORDER WHATSOEVER:
1.Rachel Lawan
2.Xuggz Canencia
3.Lyse Valdevieso
4.Jemiel Elio
5.Donico Estanislao
6.James Dequiña
7.Cha Santos
8.Tzai Sauza
9.Carz Leyson
10.Jel Napala
11.Gian Dakay
12.Jyro Crame
13.Pe3 Galvez
14.Maui Homez
15.Chie Masiga
16.Yana Gualberto
17.Ivy Lopez
18.Yen Avanceña
19.Rendz Tagalog
20.Lean Arcena
21.Keka de Guzman
22.Kua Janoos Martinez
23.Sheila Son
24.Marc Fortes
25.Jikx Fernandez
26.Nicx de Manuel
27.Piex Ventura
28.Achee delos Reyes
29.Mikx Sakurai
30.Deanno Baluyut

THE QUESTIONS:

• How did you meet 10?
-school . 2ndyr classmate (:

• What would you do if you had never
met 6?
-no more Master Budots . awww . haha ! jk lang Ahnia ! :]]

• What would you do if 20 and 15
dated?
-ha ? haha . far out mxdo. .ai .

• If you could marry between 6 and 14
who will it be?
-MAUI NA LAN . AI . HAHAHAH XD

• Did you ever like 9?
-i LOVE her . haha :D

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
-shobe ? ieah . awww .

• Would 4 and 17 make a good couple?
-lesbo tandem ? hahaha XD

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good
couple?
-rach && xuggz ? ahm ? hahaha XD

• Describe 8
-GWAPA . hahaha . :p

• Do you like 12?
-yayo !! haha . op cors i do :p

• Tell me something about 17
-ivy ! sabaan mate ! ngak3 XD

• What's 7's favorite color?
-pink ? haha XD

• What would you do if 1 just
confessed they liked you?
-rach loves me kaya ! diba LOVES ? haha XD

• When was the last time you talked to
number 15?
-nung sat. .ng.kita kami sa SM . weh :D

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
-that i`m his lil sis . haha :]]

• What language does 13 speak?
-tagalog. .ENGLISH . bisaya pero di xa bgay . haha ! XD

• Who is 2 going out with?
-SI BLUENITE . AHAHAHA XD

• What grade is 16 in?
-4th year . ka.batch lan . haha :D

• What is 5's favorite music?
-ahia don ? same as mine ata . haha XD

• Would you ever date 13?
-eeeww ! would i ever date a ghey magnet ? lulz XD

• Is 11 single?
-gian ?? courting nha ian. .haha :D

• What is 10's last name?
-jel ? napala . haha :]]

• Would you ever want to be in a
serious relationship with 7?
-oh em Goch !! hahaha XD

• Where does 18 live?
-ecoland lan . weee (:

• What do you think about 20?
-Lean ? NERD ! ai . jk lang . a good advice giver :D

• What is the best thing about 30?
-deanskie ? lingaw kasama && uber nice ^^

• What would you like to tell 14 right
now?
-buddy !! ep. 9 na ako !! hahaha XD

• How did you meet 9?
-2nd yr classmates pow kme :D

• What is the best and worst thing
about 2?
-best ? everything !! diba sis ? haha :D worst ? rapist xa ! ngak3 . jk lang sis :))

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
-lyse ? oh ieah . if she wants to . haha :]]

• How long have you known 26?
-1styr HS . hahaha . *ehem* XD

* Who is 24?
-marc fortes ! currently 4 ~ Gonzaga`s maniniyot . haha XD

• Are you or did you ever date 2?
-xuggz ? nag.break na kxe kme..sory . HAHAHA XD

• Do you have a crush on 27?
-kei pyckz ?! pwd na rin . hahaha . jk XD

• Would you kiss 25?
-jikko ? sa cheek siguro pwd pa haha

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
-op cors ! my dearest bro ! haha XD

• Would you like to hug/kiss 21?
-aie soos ! kame pa ni keka ! ahaha . missyou dai ! T_T

• Is 29 your gff?
-mika sakurai. .ieah . i miss her nha . awww :(

• What do you hate about 23?
-Sheila ? ala mann ! ilahb this girl :D

• What's your relationship with 28?
-my good supah friend . haha :D missyou dai ! T_T

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x
[ happy now :D ]

Hug hug hug .

Just a quick post [ Economics period *I.T. Session* ] .
I`m hating this day .
I wish I said "Hi" to you awhile ago .
But I`m sure it doesn`t mean anything to you now .
*sigh*

At least I got a hug from bestfriends whom I love .
[ There was one hug in particular that was really sweet:) ]
&& it`s Ash Wednesday .
&& I said "Hi" to my promdate [ though he didn`t say "Hi" back but he was sorry . *haha* ]
&& my classmates && I had vanity moments .
Thanks to Arvi`s cam XD


Still. .I`m angry && in a badtrip .
But most of all , depressed , confused && hurt .
Hayy .
Emo mode`s activated .
Wth .

----------
song for the day :




"&& here I rest where
Disappointment && regret collide
Lying awake at night"

-- Macaroonie

[ BRoken as ever . awts ]

CSAT [ Ctue? XD ] Day Realizations

The 29th day of January 2oo8 [ today ] = College Scholastic Aptitude Test day . There are 4 [ four ] things that I`ve realized today :

1. It`s quite difficult taking an exam with colds and/or fever .
Lol . Nuff said XD

2. The course I`m going to take up in College is..........
Accountancy , then I`ll proceed to Law .
But my heart will always be tied to something computer related .
The CSAT made me realize this .
:D

3. There`s two less lonely people in the world .
I was with "them" awhile ago , after the CSAT . I couldn`t help feeling joyous for them because they`re just so cute together . I won`t name names though ;]]

&& the fourth......

4. Just Know That I Am Not Giving Up On You. .
Ahmmm . Nuff said right ? I just want him to know that he has my heart , though I don`t think he knows that .

That`s all for my realizations / enlightenments [ XD ] Ta ta . I still have to study for my Physux , err Physics Long Test XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x
[ *literally* sick && BRoken ]
@_@

song: Define

Hmpf . I`m in a "badtrip" cuz of SOME PEOPLE [ or is it PERSON ?!? ] . They [ or is it SHE / HE ?!? ] are [ is ?! ] just so immature . Damn it . This song calms me down whenever I feel this way . .

Define ~ Hilera
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

I’ve heard it all before
I’ve seen this ship a thousand times
Oh, I’ve seen it all before [ && I`m sick of it ]
It’s tall && harder when they fall

Say hello, it’s me, let’s go
I’m thinking your thoughts and you’re thinkin’ mine [ I just hope so ]
Oh, it’s you, hello, let’s go
I’ve tried so hard but again I

Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

Touch me, baby, I’ll take you home
I know a friend, I know a friend
Touch me, baby, I’ll take you home
Define, define, define

I’ve heard it all before
I’ve seen this ship a million times
Oh, I’ve seen it all before [ && I`m sick of it ]
It’s tall && harder when they fall

Say hello, it’s me, let’s go
I’m thinking your thoughts and you’re thinkin’ mine [ I just hope so ]
Oh, it’s you, hello, let’s go
I’ve tried so hard but again I

Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define
Failed again so just leave me alone
Define, define, define

-- Macaroonie [ gi.bad3p . pota.. ]

Ebony && Ivory Symphony :x

*linked to dA :]

I WAS BORED DURING ONE C.L.E. PERIOD *free time* XD
so I decided to take an "emo" [ accdg. to Jikko Fernandez ] picture of "my" earphones .
XD

--for Ebony ♥ :]


*the black earphones belong to my Psychologist, Lean Arcena .
the white sorta like an iPod shuffle thingy for my cellphone belongs to me ^^

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Oni-chan :]

The 14th of January, 2oo8 .
It is on that day that someone close to my heart turns seventeen . He`s one of the best listeners I know . He sticks up to the saying "Patience is a virtue" . Recently , he`s been helping me with "love" problems . . .

Who is this person , you ask ? Well , he`s none other than my "Kuya" , Rendell Jed G. Tagalog (:

We met way back when we were still Sophomores . We were put *unluckily* in the Honor`s Section [ 2 ~ Gonzaga ] . I don`t really remember how we became close , I just know that around the 3rd Quarter, we were inseparable . I nicknamed him "Kuya" because his birthday`s on January XD

Sadly , when we became Juniors , we don`t spend time much with each other anymore . We just have those occasional "Hi"`s with each other. .

I`m glad we became classmates this school year . We rebuilt our once-close friendship && now we`re as close as ever ^^

I just send my best wishes && blessings to my ever dearest "Kuya" on his birthday . I know he`ll have a bright future ahead of him . He`s one of my guy friends whom I keep close to my heart . I`m sure God will shower him with more blessings :]

To Kuya Rendz : Hapee bdae BRO ! Matanda ka na at sana mag.tangkad ka na . Ngak3 . Thanks for always listening to me ! Lalo na pag.about kay. . . . .X . wa . Lahbyoo Kuya :]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Technology Vs. Reality [ An "Emo" Conversation ]

I had a somewhat deep and unexpected conversation with "someone" . Let`s nickname that someone as "Mr. R".. I`ll first tell how my morning began, then up to the conversation.... *scene fades, flashback thingy* [ lulz ]

My morning started out as any normal school day would go , considering I only had an hour of sleep [ Damn IT Project ] . That`s why I woke up kinda late , then my mom left me [ She wanted to hear mass at the Chapel ] . So my dad was the one who drove me to school . To summarize events , my morning didn`t quite start right. . . @_@

So I arrived at school with no intention of enjoying the day . Adding to what I feel , I missed the old guards of Ateneo whom I`ve been friends with since I was an elementary student . . I miss the guard who`d always tell my bro : "Martinez ! Zipper nimo, open!!" lulz . But haii. . .

Anyway ! When I arrived at my classroom , I just dropped my bag hard on my chair , sat down && dropped my head on the armrest. .Yeah , you can say I was in a "badtrip" . Let`s just fast forward to that conversation :

* setting : 2nd Period [ C.L.E. ] . Sir Jack Lovino = teacher . He`s lecturing but I`m not listening . LOL .
Me : Gehd . Isang oras lang gud ang tulog ko . 4 A.M. na ako naka.tulog. .tas 5 A.M. naka.gising T__T
Mr. R : Wah ! Atik Jam ? Bakit ?
Me : Dahil dun sa I.T. Project . Samok masyado . Tas parang naka.iyak pa talaga ako mga 2.3o ng umaga dahil sa proj kay naga.save ako ng forms , then bigla nag.pop up ung "Visual Basic 6.0 needs to close...." na window . Tapos 1/2 of the forms pa lang talaga ang na.save ko . So parang naulit ang lahat. . .
*someone interrupts while I was talking , saying "Sorry" to me [ haha LEAN ;) ] *
Mr. R : Awwww . Ok lang yan Jam. .
Me : Huy , may i.share pa pala ako ! May na.dream gud ako dun sa isang oras ko na tulog. .Weird gud un .
Mr. R : Anu nangyari sa dream mo , Jam ?
*take note ha , DREAM LANG ANG SINABI KO KAY MR. R*
Me : Kasi ganito daw un , galing ako Gate 8 . tas papunta ako Gate 1. .then nakita ko "siya" pati si ___ && ____ . Naga.usap daw sila sa isa`t isa . Then pumunta ako banda sa kanila . Tas nag.ask man "siya" na : "Saan ka punta Jam?" . Tas sabi ko na : "Punta ako sa isang kompyuteran.." Tas nag.gnian "siya" na : "Sabay na lang tayo!" Tas nag.bye2 kami kay ___ && ___ . Then sabay kami...
Tas grabe raw sharing namin . Karami daw naming same interests && stuff. . .
Tas bigla man yan "siya" nag.sabe na : "Jam! McDo muna tayo!" , gnian ako na : "Okay . Babuya nimo uy!!" .
Then nasa McDo na kami , eating && all. .Then nag.open up "siya" bigla . Nag.share2 siya about sa problems niya ..
Tas nag.gnian "siya" bigla na : "Jam, you really wanna know what`s bothering me right now?" . Then nag.sabi ako na : "Hmm, ok lang . Sige go." Then he said :

"There`s this girl whom I really like . As in REALLY like . && I don`t know how to tell her . && feeling ko pa nga , may iba siyang gusto.. Friends kami pero sadly , di masyado naga.pansinan sa school...I really want to tell her Jam . Para matapos na ang lahat at para na rin malaman ko kung anu feelings niya.."

Tas sabi ko raw na :

"First of all , don`t ever think na may gustong iba ang crush mo . Madali ka kasi mawalan ng pag-asa kung ganun . Don`t worry . In time , you`ll find strength to tell her what you feel ."

Then he said :

"Thanks for the advice Jam . But I`m already telling my feelings to her right now. . . ."

*gasp* Weird noh ?? @_@

Mr. R : What ? Un talaga ang dream mo Jam ? Sign gud yan. .Hehe . Pero I believe na baliktad niyan ang mangyayari .
Me : Kaya gani . It sucks. . . .
Me : Masakit gud ang situation ko ngayon . Hanggang ganun lang kami.. When we are here in the four corners of the school , it`s as if wala kaming "friendship" or what .
Mr. R : Bitaw Jam . Hanggang sa "technology" lang kayo . Pero pag.reality na , wala na. . .
Me : *sad face* Masakit gud talaga. .Pero I won`t give up gud .
Mr. R : Baliktad ata situation niyo ah ?! Parang ikaw ang lalake. .
Me : Bitaw2 ! Weird talaga uy .
*Mr. R shares something about his love life , which I can`t put here*


To that Mr. R : Thankyou thankyou thankyou for listening to me :]

-- Macaroonie .

Friggin Voice Conference XD

Ugh . I must get a mic . I just had a voice conference with a LOT of people. .[ I actually don`t remember some of them XD ] Chubby Rosete , Jikko Fernandez && Mark Zafaralla kept on talking with their mics . I want one too !! LULZ .

MARK LOVES JIKKO .
MARK FERNANDEZ .
JIKKO ZAFARALLA .
AMEN !
*yey for GHEY love*
hormones hormones ! @_@

Year - Ender .

As the year 2oo7 comes to a close , Imma review that year. .by month :) [ some of the descriptions are kinda random , so bear with it XD ]

JANUARY -- Hep ! 3rd year days. .To summarize this month in a sentence : The 31st of January caused me a "Big Apple Heartbreak" && feeling a "Never Let This Go" . [ for the people who can understand why. . @_@ ]

FEBRAURY -- Our batch experienced the first ever Junior-Senior Promenade . My promdate was Kevin Roa [ haha ] . The song "A New Tattoo" by Urbandub played that night . That memory`s still fresh in my mind :-" Thank God for Valentine`s day ! XD

MARCH -- `Twas the saddest month ever. .I made lots of new friends in the batch a year ahead of us [ the Seniors last year ] . I didn`t want them to graduate yet . At the time when I became close to them , March had to come . Errrr .
To mention a few of them :
• The 4-Borgians last year !! mga choyaxx at bugay :D
• Blue Knight people ;]]
• Seashores && Coffeecups band :)
• Some people from the Honors` Class [ mamee`s class ] XD

APRIL -- Mom was recovering from her illness at that time . So everything`s all happy happy :)

MAY -- The most unforgettable month of 2oo7 . Why ? Cuz I decided to join the C.A.T. Summer Training . [ May 7 , 2oo7 - May 27 , 2oo7 ] . Hella memorable . Lahbyoo COCC-01 ! :D

JUNE -- First month as a SENIOR . w00t w00t . Section : 4-St. Aloysius Gonzaga :)

JULY -- First month as a Unit Commander !! I miss my 3-Gonzaga cadets. .XD

AUGUST -- FIESTA ♥♥ Us C.A.T. officers performed the Silent Drill [ I`ll never forget the practices . Throwing of Rifles ! hahaha XD ] . w00t !! We also ran the Jail Booth XD

SEPTEMBER -- First batch of C.S.I.P. [ I.T. -- grades 5 && 6 ] . 4-Gonzaga`s RETREAT !!! Hella unforgettable [ Injan Injan , Room J XD ] Also , September 22 : BB`s Monthsary ^^ . Spansbab. . .EEEWWW :P

OCTOBER -- Feeling the stressure of being a Senior . wooh :-"
Lovin` my BB Family ♥ .
I hated the Sportsfest cuz of Chris Tiu :P Loved it cuz the "Tres Marias" got reunited :]]
Spansbab to Inluhb . ;]]

NOVEMBER -- Birthday month !!! :] BB made me hapee on my special day :D
Seriously crushing :-"

DECEMBER -- PARTY MONTH XD
4-Gonzaga : Sayawit Champion :D
Family bonding ♥
For short , this month`s really memorable. . . :]


To wrap up this year in a sentence : 2oo7`s one of the best years I`ve experienced so far :D Thanks to my friends , family && especially GOD :]
I`m kind of sad that this year`s going to end , but that`s life @_@

So sayonara 2oo7 , hello 2oo8 !! :]]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: Mookie`s Last Christmas

Hep ! I suddenly thought of posting my all-time favorite Christmas song here . First heard this song when my bestfriend who`s from Manila [ Miggy Suarez ] sent me this . Started listening to it about a month ago && then became addicted to it . w00t !! Nice Christmas song by Saosin :P Thanks Migskietootie ! XD

Mookie`s Last Christmas ~ Saosin

From throat && eyes came winter and reasons
I`m told to carry on
Sad overwhelms my senses drown oh I feel dependent
The feeling that you were honest before
I can't shake it...

Make the same mistake twice
Burst of red && green all over me
Brings the things that she`ll love
I should let it fold over

We count the days left, 23
&& all I know
Honestly, could I be protected
With you suddenly gone
The feeling that you were honest before
I can't shake it...

Make the same mistake twice
Burst of red && green all over me
Brings the things that she`ll love
I should let it fold over

Make the same mistake twice
Burst of red && green all over me
Brings the things that she`ll love
I should let it fold over

Make the same mistake twice
Burst of red and green covering me

MERRY CHRISTMAS !! :D

Down , err Updates @_@

Finally !! I made a serious blog post [ or is it really ? ] . Oh well . I just want to share what are the current happenings in my so-called life XD


FAMILY FEUD. .&& THEN SOME .
It`s been proven already that in an ordinary household , conflicts can never be avoided . It`s somewhat like a protocol already @_@ Anyway. . .In the Martinez household , things are getting a bit better . But the "cold war" between my eldest bro && my dad is still raging . I don`t know what are the plans of my eldest bro right now . I think he`s gonna find a job. .For goodness sake , he`s already 24 years old && still , he hasn`t taken the board exam . Oh well -___-"

My mom && dad are getting along well though . It`s almost their silver anniversary this January . Yey ! But that means I have to dress up && stuff again . But oh well . I`d do it for them. . XD


IN SICKNESS && IN HEALTH .
I admit , there are friends of mine who are really sickly [ You know who you are >.< ] . She recently got checked up in the hospital && she recently discovered that she has a new 'disease' . She told me she wanted to die already cuz she can`t take the pain anymore. .But I told her not to let go , cuz WE`RE still here . As of now , she`s feeling better . I just realized that married couples are not the only ones who should look after each other through sickness && in health , FRIENDS SHOULD TOO (: *to that 'she': lahbyoo . keep on holding on :]*


I CAN`T BE THE VAMPIRE SLAYER. . .CUZ I AM THE VAMPIRE .
Ugh . For the past month , I`ve been experiencing more && more of my stupid insomnia . I usually sleep at 1 A.M. because of it :( I don`t want to take any medication . Errrrrr . My insomnia isn`t helping me at all . On school days , I usually become sleepy during Math period . Damn . I can`t afford to sleep during that period cuz I really need to make my Math grade a little higher . Stupid , stupid , stupid insomnia X(


I`M IN A CIRCUS. .A CLOWN JUGGLER .
Well , what my college friends told me is true : Senior life is busy , tiring && difficult . Nowadays , I`ve been having difficulty in balancing my time . Originally , I don`t have good time management && that just adds to my problems . I cram more && more these days . && it sucks . Errrrr :-/


BESTFRIENDS [ PSYCHOLOGISTS ? ] MEAN FRIENDS FOREVER .
My bestfriends are truly the BEST . They`ve never left me through my times of trouble / problems , especially now . They`re open to me about their problems too . To name a few of them : RACHEL LAWAN , TZAI SAUZA , CHA SANTOS , JEMIEL ELIO , MAUI HOMEZ [ confusion buddy . haha ] , LEAN ARCENA , RENDZ TAGALOG , SHEILA SON , MARC FORTES , ELLYSE VALDEVIESO , XUGARR CANENCIA , JAMES DEQUIñA , DONICO ESTANISLAO , KARLU CARIAGA , CARINA LEYSON , ANJEL NAPALA , MAIIKX ALCANTARA , RYAN LIZARDO , KEKA DE GUZMAN , JANUS MARTINEZ , CHIE MASIGA , AYANA GUALBERTO. .I hella love them ♥xx :)

TAKING ON. . . .SEVEN YEARS ERR , ONE YEAR .
Around August / September , I`ve been having doubts on what course I would take up in College . Damn !! I had already decided last year that I would take up Accountancy . But just my luck , my heart wants to take up Com.Sci. && Law too . So what the heck .

I took this survey thingy entitled "What Should You Major In?" This was the result:

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept. You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking. You should major in: Natural sciences Computer science Creative writing Math Architecture Journalism

Now , I`m even more confused of on what I would take up . && Graduation`s about 3 months away . FUDGE >.<


SWIRLS . SWIRLS . CONFUSING .
Aaaaaah . To make a long story short , he`s confusing me . I just don`t know what to do right now . He`s giving mixed signals . I`m confuuuuuuuuused , && I hate that feeling -___-" I don`t know anymore. .



So there ! Updates in my life XD Much on problems right ? Lol . Oh well .
GTG , gotta make an article for BK pah . Till next time . Weeeeeeee :]]

--Macaroonie ♥x