Never Ending, Uhm.. Endings .

Woosh . I haven`t written in my blog for quite some time now . So here are some updates :

Throwing Away My Army Greens ?
To summarize everything up , the Ateneo High school had the Joint Scouting && CAT Closing Ceremony last Friday , March 14, 2oo8 . It meant that us officers had graduated && is free of our duties . Weh XD

The fun came after the ceremony . Us officers had our "salu-salo" / get together . We had a program full of "performances" && award giving . The best performance was from the guy officers . They danced the Soulja Boy && had "joke time" . Haha . Every officer was given an award .. Mine was "San Pedro`s award" / "St. Peter`s award" . Kudos to Sir Lactaoen for that @_@

But although I`m ecstatic that I finally have no more responsibilities in CAT [ as if I have a really tiring job , I`m only the 2nd Battalion`s S1 XD ] , I will really miss all the moments us officers had together . Through all the one hour or more in attention , memories as trainees , all the corrective measures we`ve received , all the wounds we received [ Silent Drill haha ] , or whatnot , I thoroughly enjoyed every moment . COCC-01 [ minus two ] has finally graduated . Woohoo ! But I don`t think Imma through my army greens just yet ;]]
* an end to CAT *


No More Gossip For Me
I just finished watching all of the Gossip Girl episodes of Season 1 . Ugh , I want Season 2 to start already ! Haha [:
* an end to watching my favorite TV Series *


Checklist.. Err , check ?
I found my personal checklist awhile ago while I was rummaging through my cabinet [ I was finding my poem notebook ] . This is what was in it :

• Survive Filipino shooting
• Finish Investigatory project Powerpoint
• Type Minutes
• Finish && do good on the last seven exams of your High school life
• Clear your Clearance
• Graduate!!! :x

Uhh . Only two things are not checked yet , the last two items on my list . Wooosh , graduation .. April 5, 2oo8 . Weh .
* an end to checklists *


It Spreads Like Poison ! :0

Shit . The virus in my PC must have really spread cuz my PC`s all busted . Damn . Does that mean I won`t be having those summer days without sleeping , just playing ? w00t . Now that would really....suck -___-"
But we have a family technician who`s really good at this stuff && I wanna learn from him [ Go Kuya Mark ! XD ] . I learned how to do hard drive to hard drive data transfer cuz of him . Kewl XD

I just found out that my motherboard`s dead . Damn . The motherboard`s heating too much && stuff . Tsk . I must really take care of my PC after it`s repaired again @_@
* an end to my "healthy" PC *

Woops . Clarification. .
For everyone`s clarification , I`m not hating Mr. Ebony or whatever he calls himself in my previous blogpost [ The Paramore song ] . I actually posted it for my friend who hates her ex boyfriend . So I got caught in between . Woosh .

Actually , my song for Mr. Ebony right now is Miracle! by Paramore .
Lyrics that I can truly relate to~ :

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you && I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill my fears
But have I told you, have I

* an end to some people`s understanding *


That`s all for now .
Imma abstain from using the PC for during this Holy Week . w00t .
Imma also be offline during Black Saturday && Easter Sunday .
My family && cousins are going to have our annual overnight .
Weh :D

Hope everyone has a blessed holy week†

-- M i R a i
[ 22 ♥ ]

One - Zero - Zero

MIRAI`S DRAMACHINE FINALLY HITS THE ONE - ZERO - ZERO POST :D

Whew ! My hundredth post here in my so called "blog" . I never thought I`d reach this . I`ve also decided to stay here && to not delete this , despite the "memories" . Hmm... What to write , what to write [ or what to type XD ]

First thing`s first ! UPDATES . Weh .

Cupid Gave Me My Own Spiderman
When I heard [ or read ] that Mr. Ebony was giving up , Ms. Ivory [ I ] did too [ without me realizing it ] Eow . But then , Stupid Cupid hit my poor && unconscious heart waaaay before Valentine`s Day . It was around early January when I officially met "him" [ nickname : three ] . I think I`ve met him since I was still a Sophomore , because he was my good friend`s *cough* classmate .

Anyway , around January 8 or 9 , we were introduced to each other . Needless to say , we really hit off , even though we "just met" . We talked mostly about computer games . Suddenly my bestfriend [ Ms. Smowl ] said that I was a pervert *but she actually said manyak* [ I totally LOL at that~ XD ] . Mr. Three just laughed . When it was time for me to go home , Mr. Three said : "Bye Jamanyak!" . I`ll never forget that . But then , he had a girlfriend . So I was kinda down about that . I could safely he was my bestfriend...a really sweet one . We played Flyff together .[ I influenced him ] . I was sooooo comfortable with him cuz I could be myself . So to cut the story , Cupid broke off the arrow between Three && his gf && hit me instead . Waaaaa (:

V-Day , May-day [ ? ]
Well well well . I never thought I`d be super duper really totally 1ooo% this much happy during Valentine`s Day [ a.k.a. Single Awareness Day ] . Starting from the fact that I got to be a student teacher during that day , that was already more than enough to make me jump for joy [ lmao ] . I taught Chemistry in the 3 - Pignatelli classroom [ a.k.a. my promdate`s classroom ] && in the 3 - Borgia classroom [ where Deanno`s && Donico`s promdates are ] . I had fun during the Chemistry sessions because I was with my co-teacher , Raymond Binoya [ third year classmate ] . We gave a 2oo item quiz to the class ! Weh ! [ It`s okay if we are bombarded with the word "sadists" . lol ]

I got to "teach" in my own classroom too ! My classmates && I just had our research for Physics in the I.T. Lab . I let them surf the net . Weh XD

The other thing that made me so happy was just a simple rose . It was just one , surely bought outside the gates of our school . What made it special was that Mr. Three gave it (: ♥

Promenade , You Say?
In just T - some hours , our batch is going to experience our second && last Prom . I agree with my buddy , I`m not that excited . I just want our periods to be shortened because of the practice XD . I was actually grateful for the Prom practice cuz it gave us a chance to "bond" with our promdates . Moreover , my tablemate`s my good friend && classmate [ Miki ] .

1st Practice : Miki , Joeann , Jairah && I just kept on talking with each other . We didn`t talk to our promdates at all . [ lol ]
2nd Practice : Backstab session with our promdates ! `Twas fun though . First "bonding" session XD
3rd Practice : Ugh , the sunlight was trippin` on us . During the first part of the practice Our table [ 23o ] was moved to the front . We already have nicknames for each other :
Me = adik
Earl [ my promdate ] = emo
Miki [ my tablemate && classmate ] = mother nature
Ryan [ Miki`s promdate ] = Zac Efron
*only some people can understand why XD*

My promdate dared us three to stand while the practice was going on... So we did do that . It was kinda funny && embarrassing because some people were looking at us && we just kept on laughing . `Twas a "cute" bonding moment though XD

Prince [ Majoy`s promdate && Earl`s classmate ] kept on teasing me to Earl . IDK why @_@

Oh oh oh ! Go for the REJESTER . Nyahahaha XD

I Didn`t Say Hate
Well well well . It was supposed to be a spear . Lol . Anyway , I`m not intending to aim any sharp-edged weapon of hate to someone . But I DID consider that though . Then I thought I`d be so childish if I handled it in that way . So like NVM . I just hope that someone && I could still be friends though . I really have to talk [ heart-to-heart ? ] to that someone before we graduate ... *sigh*

Boards && Brooms For Fun
Flyff is LAHB . aNNic is LAHB . Macaroonie™ is LAHB . Spread the Flyff LAHB ! *bow* XD

Oooh , Numbers
I just found out yesterday that I passed the CSAT [ Yey for me ] . I am now officially legible to enroll as a student in the Ateneo de Davao Jacinto campus . What`s the course I am taking up , you ask ? Let`s just say I`m readying a lot of hankerchiefs because I`d be immersing my self in the world of Math && numbers . That is teh l33t [ XD ]

B.S. Whaaat ?
Ahm no , the meaning of B.S. in my update title is not Bachelor of Science . It`s BUSY SUMMER . I just realized that I`ll be hella busy this vacation season .

Imma....
• take up violin lessons again [ with Shobe Jemiel && Ahia Don ]
• practice driving [ 2oo8`s the year that I`ll finally get my Student`s Permit ! ^^ ]
• be in the shooting range with my bro [ kewl sport for a girl ]
• skimboard once more [ fave water sport ]
• be a DJ with Deanno [ I think ]
• have gig/s with my band [ I thoroughly hope ]
• help my friend with his business
• take a trip to the land of Hongkong [ Disneyland , here I come ! :9 ]
• take up a graphic web designing class [ hmm , still tentative ]
&& • devote my extra time to gaming . Waw . It`s really a B.S. XD

Adios To The Green [ ? ] Fields
Ugh . In two to three weeks , us Seniors will take the last 6 or 7 exams in our High School life . In two months [ ? ] , we will leave behind the green [ ? ] fields of our Alma Matter , Ateneo de Davao University . Honestly , I do not want to graduate yet . My bros say that that`s just a natural feeling . High School`s so fun-filled . I wouldn`t wanna trade this memory for anything else . [ Fudge , I`m getting emo O_O ] . I remember my 1 - Borgia days[ still FRESH XD ] .. 2 - Gonzaga [ Honor`s class ftw @_@ ] moments .. 3 - Canisius memories [ my MOST fun-filled year ] .. my time spent in 4 - Gonzaga . Awww .

But I can`t stop from April 5 from coming . So adios to the High School building I`ve stayed in for almost 4 years . I`ll still be a blue-blood though XD

Suspended For PDA ;]]
That`s not what you think it is . It`s just the name of my group of friends whom I hang out with most of the time . We are called PDA because always tease each other of doing PDA [ Public Display of Affection ] . Every girl has a guy "partner" in the group . We`re only 6 members but we have a lot of fun together . Everybody accepts every person in the group as who they are :D

To them : I`ll never forget FEBRUARY 15 , 2OO8 ♥
wahaha XD

Papa Said Play :D
Soooo ... My first idea of my Graduation gift didn`t pull through . It was a trip to Japan . Then my mom said that a trip to Japan is like a trip to a country in Europe . So NVM [ T_T ] . I had finally thought of an alternative Grad. gift , a Playstation Portable .

I am totally in love with PSP`s [ don`t mark me as weird though ] XD I mean , it`s like an iPod , with 1ox the power . You can play games , watch movies , listen to music , surf the internet or connect with other PSP users through WLAN . It`s pretty cool for me . && I`m just sorta kinda jealous of my bro who has a PSP [ XD ] .

Can You Keep A Secret ?
The song Secret by The Pierces is currently my LSS [ Last Song Syndrome ] . This song was featured in Gossip Girl , 1oth episode *Hi , Society* . It was the song playing during the part when they were dancing the cotillion . I can`t find its full length song in imeem though . Imma upload it next time XD

Being Grown Up Isn`t Half As Fun As Growing Up
My all time favorite quote/lyric from the song In This Diary by The Ataris . I sorta wanted this to be the graduation song of our batch but our grad. song will be a composition . I still love this song though :D

That`s all for my updates .
I`m just going to put two pictures that depict what`s going in on my life right now :

1st Picture :

* something I made for Mr. Three . I think two or three weeks ago (:
[ linked to dA ]


2nd Picture :

* another picture from explodingdog.com [ I just love his works XD ]
The title of that pic is : "Another awesome day"
I love it XD

Whew .
That`s all for my 1ooth post .
:D

-- M i r a i
*I`ll be posting as Mirai from now on XD*
[ elated ♥ ]

So You Think...

Huh . You`re not the only one . Some people even say it`s two times the hurt on my part .
Let`s talk... Please ? :(
Don`t just throw this all away...

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"Will I shake this off
Pretend it`s all okay
That there`s someone out there who feels just like me
There is"

-- Macaroonie
[ seriously BRoken . damn :( ]

song: When It Rains

The "scribble" is proof . You were true . Do you really want to end this *almost* beginning ?

When It Rains ~ Paramore
&& when it rains on this side of town
It touches everything
Just say it again && mean it
We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
&& convinced yourself
that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

&& no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

&& when it rains
You always find an escape
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
Of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
&& you'll sleep till May
You'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

&& no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

(Explain your side, Take my side)
Take these chances to turn it around
Take these chances we'll make it somehow
&& take these chances and turn it around
Just turn it around.

&& no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming &&
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

You can take your time, take my time

-- Macaroonie
[ BRokeN ]

Updates .

Past week.....

Tempra for you?
Ugh . I got fever AND colds last Wednesday . I had to miss one day of school . I went to school the next day , though I still wasn`t feeling 1oo% well . Up to now , I have colds . Weh .

Nanny Mode
I already have 2 "clients" . Haha . They`re pretty sweet && cute together . The only problem is a lot of people are teasing them . So it`s kinda awkward [ @_@ ] . As their nanny , I have to stop those guys . But how ? Hmmm .

Play. .So Pay !
I`ve been thinking for the past month if I should buy myself a PSP . I`m not going to buy just because a lot of people are holding PSP`s right now but because there are a lot of benefits . && oh yeah , I wanna kill my bro in Naruto Shippuuden [ XD ]

512 mB ? Oh Please .
Uh oh . The memory card of my cellphone`s almost full . I`ve already asked my dad if he could by me a new one [ a 4GB would do XD ] . He said yes but up to now , still no memory card . Errr . [ @_@ ] .

Bestfriends , For God`s Sake .
Ugh . Some people are thinking that I`m harboring feelings for some of my guy bestfriends [ Ahia or The DJ or Pedro ] . No , okay ? I`m 1oo% loyal to Mr. H.G. .

The Three Faces of Life
The "English-ed" title of the movie [ Ang Tatlong Mukha ng Buhay ] made by my fellow schoolmates && some of our teachers here in the Ateneo High School . The whole highschool watched it last Friday but it was by batch . Us Seniors were last , having the slot for the last full show . The movie was pretty nice , kewl && funny . It was about typical situations in life [ love , family && the like ] . Abelardo Macaspag III is so kawaii !!! [ XD ]

Wobbly
This is how my friend described her current relationship with her boyfriend . They`ve been together for 4 years already . I just hope they`ll be okay cuz I was the one who hooked them up in the first place *Wa* .


My Favorite LSS . Woah
My current LSS && favorite song : The King of Wishful Thinking ~ New Found Glory .

"If I don`t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I`ll get over you I know I will
I`ll pretend my ship`s not sinking
&& I`ll tell myself I’m over you
Because I`m the king queen of wishful thinking
I am the king queen of wishful thinking
I`ll get over you I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won`t shed a tear for you
I`ll be the king queen of wishful thinking"

I`m Not Going To Let You Slip Out That Easily
Oh . I wish you`d just know . Why are you doing this now ? Hmmm . It`s not over yet *I hope* .

-- Macaroonie
[ BRokeN ]

Please Don`t .

Shit. I think I need a bigger towel.

I wish I could go back in time , try to tell you everything . But I guess , it`s just too late . You`re not "there" anymore . What am I to do? Are second chances one of your preferences?

I also wish I could just say "it" to you . Straight out . But how? Can we talk face to face?

Please tell me you`re not going to let go yet . Cuz I still am holding on .

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"Stay with me
This is what I need...
Please."
....

-- Macaroonie :(
[ BRokeN ]

song: Amelita Mi Amor

This is one of my favorite local songs [ Yey , DAVAO BANDS !! XD ] . It really reminds me of my Freshman days [ You`re The Pogi Boy ! XD ] This was sung by False Alarm . Sadly though , their band broke up because of their drummer [ Kuya Shlawie ] . Kuya Shlawie moved to Cebu because of his job . Awwww . The song`s still kewl though :D

BTW , I`m quite unsure of the lyrics since I can`t find its lyrics in the net XD

Amelita Mi Amor ~ False Alarm
Ola , señorita
Seeing you today without a single word to say [ *cough cough* ]
How could I be with you if I don`t know what to do?
I`ll still have to learn this time

Ola , señorita
How would you know if I don`t know how to express myself [ *cough cough* again ]
When I have the courage to look straight in your eyes
Then you come , I just dream it all

My bonita
Amelita (amelita mi amor!)
Just can`t hold myself just to look at you
My bonita
Amelia (amelita mi amor!)
Can I spend the last two months with you? [ *cough cough* agaaaaaain ]
Maybe leave your image on the corner of my eye
Maybe that way , there`s no way I`ll forget you

Ola , señorita
You`d make it out or I`ll just walk you home after school
I am in the car right now but I could write a song
That would make you && me a million fun

[ Repeat Chorus 2x ]
Amelita mi amor. .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

CSAT [ Ctue? XD ] Day Realizations

The 29th day of January 2oo8 [ today ] = College Scholastic Aptitude Test day . There are 4 [ four ] things that I`ve realized today :

1. It`s quite difficult taking an exam with colds and/or fever .
Lol . Nuff said XD

2. The course I`m going to take up in College is..........
Accountancy , then I`ll proceed to Law .
But my heart will always be tied to something computer related .
The CSAT made me realize this .
:D

3. There`s two less lonely people in the world .
I was with "them" awhile ago , after the CSAT . I couldn`t help feeling joyous for them because they`re just so cute together . I won`t name names though ;]]

&& the fourth......

4. Just Know That I Am Not Giving Up On You. .
Ahmmm . Nuff said right ? I just want him to know that he has my heart , though I don`t think he knows that .

That`s all for my realizations / enlightenments [ XD ] Ta ta . I still have to study for my Physux , err Physics Long Test XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x
[ *literally* sick && BRoken ]
@_@

poem && picture: Fade Away

Finally , finally , finally ! This time , it`s a REAL poem , not a compo XD

*linked to dA ^^

Fade Away
The rare smiles you wear
The melodious laugh I hear
Complete my heart
Trying to catch your eye
Infatuation is not that simple
My angel so true
Come with me
For flowers bloom
In this ethereal garden
Love me if you dare
Take my hand
Look me in the eyes
I wear a thousand masks
But with you ,
I am only myself
Learning && waiting isn`t that easy
But I will until our hearts fade as one...

&& yeah , I will wait...

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: Writist

I finally posted one of my poems ! Err scratch that . This is a song composition of mine . I made this during April `o7 . I don`t know exactly why I made this . I think I had a pen && some yellow paper by my side at that time XD

The song does not have a cover from my band yet though . Wah .

Writist = writer + artist .
:D

Writist ~ JaMartinez™
Have I ever told you
What`s on my mind these days?
Although I would keep on walking
I hopelessly search for you face

Drowning in your impeccable aura
Lost in an undefined time
The truth won`t tell me
If I should leave you behind

Chorus:
Give me a pencil
Please trace with pen
So that I can see the lines
For you to come back again
Burn these papers
Say what`s in your heart
Give me back my strength
Before you go tearing me apart

Tears have already dried
Memories have been left
But why is the unbearable pain
Still in this chest?

Spring turns to winter
Petals are slowly falling
The music is in line
To my heart slowly failing

[ repeat Chorus ]

I can`t help but say...
These tears fall for you..
Only for you....

[ repeat Chorus ]

And as I go through (pass me by)
These half-finished letters (kiss me goodbye)
Never again will I...

*I dedicate this to H.G. / Ebony though the song`s not really for him .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Music && Lyrics .

Just thought of posting what was in the G.M. [ group message ] Sir Lactaoen / Dwardie sent :

"If I`m a writer ,
If I`m a poet ,
I might love you .
But never show it. ."
-- Milligram Smile by From Autumn To Ashes .

Cool lyrics :D

&& it reminds me to post some of my new poems here . But I can`t find it . Whappow @_@

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

songs: Kill The Drama || Make My Heart Attack

I`m listening to one of these songs right now . They`re sung by the same band [ Spitalfield ] , one of my favorite bands . My eldest brother told me about them when I was still a Freshman . I instantly liked the band cuz the songs really have nice rhythm && intro . The lyrics quite speak to me too :D

Kill The Drama ~ Spitalfield

i`d really like to see you there.
i can`t pretend like i don't care. because i really do yeah.
please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we`ll talk tomorrow [ we don`t ]
dream about me (about me), && don`t worry
we`ll be fine (be fine).

can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.
can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting you down.

you said that we were leaving, i asked "where we were going."
do you really (really)?
i just really do want everything to work out
like the motion picture endings.
what i really (really)..
what i really meant to say..to say

can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.
can you hear me?
can you see me?
what i don`t know can not hurt me.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

i`m turning around.
i`m turning around.
i`m turning it out.
i`m taking it out.
i`m turning around.
i`m falling apart.
i`m hitting the ground.

what i don`t know cannot hurt me. [2x]

can you see me?
what i don't know can not hurt me.
(please just kill the drama.
go to sleep, we`ll talk tomorrow.
dream about me, && don't worry
we`ll be fine.)

Make My Heart Attack ~ Spitalfield

I work backwards from nowhere don`t opposites attract?
I`ve got no friends and blank stares that could make my heart attack
&& I miss you don`t you miss me?

I don`t know just where to start it`s like,
when I`m without you things just fall apart && I will know

&& I know that you know I`ll be back I`ll be home
I`m tired of telling you something that you already know [ I know you know ]
&& I know that you know I`ll be back I`ll be home
I`m tired of telling you something that you already know

&& we`ll make it through
this if I had just one wish if my dreams all come true
then your dreams will too

&& I miss you && don't you miss me?
I don`t know just where to start it's like,
when I’m without you things just fall apart && I will know

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know

Somewhere out there

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something that you already know

And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
And I know that you know I’ll be back I’ll be home
I’m tired of telling you something

I`m terribly missing someone right now. .Damn .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: Don`t Wait

I was watching a One Tree Hill episode when I suddenly remembered this song . This song`s also featured in One Tree Hill :D

Don`t Wait ~ Dashboard Confessional
The sky glows
I see it shining when my eyes close
I hear your warnings but we both know
I`m gonna look at it again

Don't wait, don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
&& suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

You get one look
I'll show you something that the night took.
A bit to early for my own good
Now let's not speak of it again

Don't wait, don't wait
The road is now a sudden sea
And suddenly, you're deep enough
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down
To lay your armor down

Don't wait, don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by
Don't wait
To lay your armor down [x5]

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

An Excerpt [ && Confessions (?) ] .

This is an excerpt from the essay we are discussing about in our English subject . It is entitled "What I Have Lived For" by Bertrand Russell . The paragraph I chose is the one about love . Ahm....
Here it is :

"I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy---ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness---that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what---at last---I have found."

I have the same thoughts && views as the author . I haven`t found love yet though . Well , I thought I already found it but I realize that "Love can`t really be love until two people share it together. It`s not the instant love that is noticeable nowadays ."...

I just hope that I could fix things with him . But I really want to concentrate on my studies [ only two months left *gasp* ] . I don`t want anything else confusing me as of the moment . *but sometimes I think that being like this because of him is worth it....*

Hopefully , I would settle this before or during the summer break . It would be quite bleak if I could settle "this" during the summer because I might *take note: might* be busy . The reasons why :

• family trip to Japan [ t e n t a t i v e ! my graduation gift *part I* from my parents ]
• "extreme" sports tripping [ skim && skate . i miss doing these so much ]
• violin lessons [ once again , i`ll play . i miss this too ]
• gig/s with my band *hopefully*
• help my friend with his "business" ;]]
• DJ summer job thingy with Deannoink XD
• practice driving ! :P

So there . Do I have time for "fixing" things && taking a chance on love once more ? Hmm . If only God would allow me . Wa...

-- Macaroonie .

Ebony && Ivory Symphony :x

*linked to dA :]

I WAS BORED DURING ONE C.L.E. PERIOD *free time* XD
so I decided to take an "emo" [ accdg. to Jikko Fernandez ] picture of "my" earphones .
XD

--for Ebony ♥ :]


*the black earphones belong to my Psychologist, Lean Arcena .
the white sorta like an iPod shuffle thingy for my cellphone belongs to me ^^

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

Lulz wut ?

Wait , what am I doing ?
I don`t think I should bid goodbye yet again .
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
What da. . .

to Shobe Jemiel : BASAHIN ANG NEWSPAPER ! WA ! NANG.LIGID NA KO DIRI ! NA.UNSA NKO SHOB ?!?! POTEK . @_@
GO BABES && HONEYBUNCH . WAAAA . XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x [ ? ]

Memory .

Copy-pasted a crush survey thingy from my former classmate , John Carlo dela Cruz *haha* . Just a little tribute to Ebony / HG . Wa . I edited some of my answers... XD

answered on : Saturday, 12 January, 2008 at 9:28 PM

CRUSH SURVEY :
1.)Sinong mas matangkad sa inyo ng
crush mo?
- siya . obviously . waaaa .

2.)Ano ang kulay nya?
- ahm... normal . moreno . i think . wa .

3.)sino mas matanda sa inyo?
- siya -___-"

4.)Kailan mo sya last nakita?
- yisturdi .

5.) Kailan mo sya last nkausap?
- ahm . next question ? *T_T*

6.) Close kayo?
- in some aspect daw . wa .

7.)Ano klase buhok nya?
- gna.follow ang prescribed haircut . haha..

8.)Magaling sumayaw?
- ahm ewan ...

9.)Magaling kumanta?
- inde raw sabi ng friend q . wa . LOL .

10.) Saan siya magaling?
- sa isang subject na favorite ko...*smug*

11.)Alam ba nya na crush mo sya?
- i `m xur na YES ...

12.) Kilala ka ba nya?
- yup

13.) Alam nya name mo?
- uu .

14.)Nka text mo na ?
- nung xmas break ...

15.)May karibal ka?
- meron daw . mrmi pa gni . wa .

16.) Gaano ktagal mo na sya crush?
- 4 months , i think .. since sept or oct

17.)Saan mo sya unang nkta?
- school ..

18.) Paano kyo nagkkilala?
- ahw . sa isang school event ..[ C.S.I.P. ] wa.

19.) Sasabihin mo ba sknya?
- alam man nia ... ngak .

20.) Anong pangalan nya?
- *@)@&(!#(@*%$(!^)^@ . un na un .

21.)Narinig mo na ba boses nya?
- yup pero mga twice or thrice lang . ung
nag.hi xa sa akn..

22.)Kilala ba siya ng mga friends mo?
- ahw uu . wa

23.) E kilala mo ba mga friend nya?
- yup . wa .

-- Macaroonie :(

Mystery :]

Decode it . Find out what it says . I dare you . *haha* XD

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

song: The Adventure

Just another song I found unplayed in my Music Library / Store . Has nice lyrics . && also a kewl band *Tom Delonge [ former vocalist of the already broken up band Blink 182 ] is the vocalist of Angels && Airwaves* :]

The Adventure ~ Angels && Airwaves
I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up && I`m alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I`m the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that`s dead shall be re-grown,
&& your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

Hey, oh, here I am,
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin .

Any type of love - it will be shown,
like every single tree reach for the sky.
If you're gonna fall,
I'll let you know,
that I will pick you up
like you for I,
I felt this thing,
I can't replace.
Where everyone was working for this goal.
Where all the children left without a trace,
only to come back, as pure as gold,
To recite this all.

Hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.
Tonight,
hey, oh, here I am,
and here we go, life's waiting to begin.

I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live, I can't breathe
unless you do this with me

Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me),
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin (do this with me).
Hey, oh, here I am (do this with me).
&& here we go, life`s waiting to begin ,
life's waiting to begin .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x

I.M.Y . I.L.Y. ? <33

Aw . I just missed surfing through one of my favorite sites when I was still in 3rd year , which is explodingdog.com . The owner of that site is Sam . He makes digital art out of the titles that you e-mail to him . He does pretty good , kewl && funny pictures , I can say :]

Ahm , this is for him though . Hmmmmmm .

"what can i say ? ♥"

"i think you understand. . ♥"


"i don`t know what to do anymore ."

"i wonder if you miss me as much i miss you ."


"&& if you were with me tonight ,
I`d sing to you just one more time .
A song for a heart so big ,
God wouldn`t let it live ."
-- May Angels Lead You In ~ Jimmy Eat World

Woops . Are you missing someone , Jam ? Lulz .

-- Macaroonie ♥♥x