Wishlist :]

Since the Christmas Party is fast approaching , our class awhile ago picked the names on who would be our "manitos" && "manitas" . We made a wishlist [ in a 1 whole cartolina ] && this is what I put in that cartolina :

• skateboard [ Enjoi na deck ]
• Magic the Gathering Booster PACKS
• new trucks sa skateboard !
• sling bag [ Guerilla brand ] *wag kikay na sling bag !!*
• RF load [ P500 ] hahaha c:
• skate shoes !! [ size 6 , preferably OSIRIS brand ]
• "stick". . .sa maka.gets . hehe .
• skimboard !!
• any PANDA stuffs. . ^^
• DARK CHOCOLATES !! [ Hershey`s c: ]
• anything PURPLE ! [ preferably drumsticks ] *ung drumsticks na para sa drums ha ! wag ung chicken . lol*
• Panic! At the Disco CD [ A Fever You Can`t Sweat Out ]
• Paramore CD [ All We Know Is Falling ]

TOTAL COST : about P13,600 :))

P.S. : Ok na MASYADO sa akin kung maka.bigay ka ng isa or dalawa sa list na yan . Preferably the panda stuffs or ung CD`s . bwahaha ! :D

Ebony && Ivory .

Ebony (Diospyros ebenum), also known as India Ebony or Ceylon Ebony depending on its origin, is a tree in the genus Diospyros, native to southern India and Sri Lanka. It is noted for its heavy black, fine-grained heartwood. It is a medium-sized evergreen, reaching 20–25 m tall. The leaves are entire, about 6–15 cm long and 3–5 cm broad. The fruit is a small berry 2 cm diameter, similar to a small persimmon. Ebony heartwood is one of the most intensely black woods known, which, combined with its very high density (it is one of the very few woods that sink in water), fine texture, and ability to polish very smoothly, has made it very valuable as an ornamental wood.

Ivory is a hard, white, opaque substance that is the bulk of the teeth and tusks of animals such as the elephant, hippopotamus, walrus, mammoth and narwhal. The word "ivory" was traditionally applied to the tusks of elephants; the word is ultimately from Ancient Egyptian âb, âbu "elephant". Ivory has availed itself to many ornamental and practical uses. Prior to the introduction of plastics, it was used for billiard balls, piano keys, bagpipes, buttons and a wide range of ornamental items. Synthetic substitutes for ivory have been developed. Plastics have been viewed by piano purists as an inferior ivory substitute on piano keys, although other recently developed materials more closely resemble the feel of real ivory.

* I just found it interesting to compare two different materials . Black && White combo . hehe .

Phone Lines && Low Definitions .

You`re slowly swaying to those melodramatic symphonies going on in your head again . Have you not realized the music has changed ? It`s for you && I now. ."Seemingly endless hallways with you && I at centerstage" , I said . But no , you`re not noticing the way I`ve shaken up since the moment you touched my entity . But then: Yes, I`ve already decided to try my luck on you .

Let me cut through your phone lines , for you to notice the sequence I put in slow motion . Where we had a brief blissful moment together with monosyllables uttered from our pretentious mouths .I thought I could map myself onto your life at that time . But [ once again ] , you had your black-sapphire eyes unfocused on me .

Oh star , I wish you would fall beside me tonight . Crashes && burns do not matter to me , I just need your ethereal light. . .

So pack your bags now . Leave me lingering for your rare smiles . We`ll make the great escape from this cynical world . Where land grows abundance && where the sun sheds teardrops. . .Dreams .

Now I sit at the edges of misery , knowing that your phone lines are dead , as well as your heart . But I look up && see the brand new moon . I just know tonight && every moment spent figuring you out is worth it. . . As I hear the low definitions from the melodramatic symphony you sing so softly .

* "composition" XD

A Year Has Passed :]

The following blog entry was what I made for English last year [ requirement chorva XD ] . I recently discovered this && just realized that a year has passed since I wrote it XD So here it is :

11.21.06
I sit and stare at the horizon of the setting sun. It`s beautiful yet I am left with a feeling of emptiness and loneliness. Yet, its rays bring a silent and hidden promise for a new day. Night fast approaches and I forget everything as I am lost in the blur of activities I usually do. As I lie in my bed, thinking of what happened as this night ends, I remember the setting sun and the rays` promise...I close my eyes and get lost in black and white dreams.

11.22.06
Here I am now in Ateneo during 3-Canisius` English period. I am quite weary because of the activities this morning. So far, this day`s been great. I got high scores in my quizzes ;) , fooled around with my friends and ate lunch with my mom. Those things usually composed my usual day[except for the high scores thing xD]. Dismissal came and I hung around school for awhile, fooled around with my friends[again], got the warmest hug from the *best guy ever*[yecchh . lol ] and went home. Now I`m here, sitting in the comfy chair in front of my family`s computer, thinking of what to write here [ errm, wow.haha] .

As I went home from school, I remember watching the same setting sun. Still, its rays held that same promise I observed yesterday. With a smile, I knew that it kept its promise. Why? Because here I am now, writing in this blog, savoring the good things that happened to me this "new day" that the sun`s rays promised and most of all, enjoying life. . .And so, this blog isn`t just a requirement for my English subject, this is also a factory of the thoughts of a normal,ordinary teenage girl who`s trying to live her life the way she wants it to . =)

*I miss my Junior layp. . :x But i hella love my Senior layp ^^ Oh yes , insomnia attacked me again ! >.<

To The Angel Above Me .

I made this during one boring Physics class , at the back of my Physics Notebook XD . My Physics teacher , Ms. Dosol , was explaning what elastic && inelastic collisions were all about. . Frankly , half of me was listening at that time but in the back of my mind , I was thinking :
" Do you && I collide ?" [ it rhymes ! XD ]

To the Angel Above Me:

When I look at the stars they shine of your eyes

The sky it burns bright with your presence tonight.

Cause you're so above me and I cannot fly.

To the angel above me I long to be with. With.

Angel above me.

So , who`s your angel tonight ?

Cuz I could be yours .

Thanks to Ivy Lopez , for letting me borrow her orange my-gel && her blue ballpen XD

song: Tonight by FM Static

I remember the times we spent together

All those drives, we had a million questions

All about our lives

And when we got to New York everything felt right

I wish you were here with me,

Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,

were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming

Except we always woke up,

Never thought not having you here now

Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

And know the stars are

Holding you, holding you, holding you

Tonight

I remember the time you told me

About when you were eight

And all those things you said that night

That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in

And the games we would play

All the times we spilled our coffees

And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me

About your Jesus, and how not to look back

Even if no one believes us

When it hurts so bad, sometimes

Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

And know the stars are

Holding you, holding you, holding you

Tonight

I say

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

And know the stars are

Holding you, holding you, holding you

Tonight. . .

"The stars may hold you tonight

I just hope those stars are for me.."

--Macaroonie to Hallway Guy

Hayy. .Thanks to Shobe JemiElio for sending me this song .

to Shobe : Maka.emo jud ni xa buh . hahaha XD

Nonsensical :]]

".. && I miss you
Don`t you miss me ?
I don't know just where to start
It`s like when I’m without you ,
Things just fall apart..."
-- Make My Heart Attack ~ Spitalfield

Wuah ! I`m so 'enderun' !! [ according to Shobe Jemiel ] . It`s just between Xuggz Canencia , Ellyse Valdevieso , Jemiel Elio [ Shobe ] && Me about what 'enderun' means for us guysh ;]

Well , another C.A.T. day has ended . I can`t say I`m really tired from C.A.T. because I really didn`t do quite a lot during C.A.T. time . The officers who really did a lot were the Platoon Leaders , Company Commanders && Battalion Commanders . Gosh , I was in awe when they started to do the inspection of ranks . They managed to pull it off. .&& it was more than successful too ! Their practices DID help . Claps for them ! XD

RAPIST ? Uugggh . Ellyse && Shobe are so mean ! They are calling me 'rapist' when in fact I`m not [ Keep quiet about what I said guysh ! Haha :P ] . .I`m even the Prince Charming of the class ! Hehe... I couldn`t describe the confe we had with Karlu , Chino && Jico just awhile ago . It was soooo nonsensical . With all the background music in our houses : Total Eclipse of the Heart , Banyo Queen, Island in the Sun, Elisi. . Lol . [ Guess which song is mine ? XD ]

Oh well . Till here :]
I just LOVE talking nonsense . ♥
HAHA :]



P.S.:
to ELLYSE && SHOBE : I am NOT a rapist !! Yer just jealous. .Hahahahaha :)) Besides , that`s bad :p

Ms. DOUBTfire -____-"

I was busy going over && over the 8th paragraph of the essay, Man`s Search For Meaning, from our English IV book , moments after our class finished checking our quizzes in Math . We were tasked to memorize one paragraph from that essay && we would recite it in front of our class . My seatmate , Rendell Tagalog , was quite jittery && nervous because he was the prayer leader AND he would be the first one to recite his speech . [ haha XD ]

Through all the hurried memorizations && repetitive speeches of my classmates && I , none of us got to recite our speeches [ except for those who already had recited ] . Instead , our English teacher [ Mrs. Alaba ] , gave us a task that was similar to what us 4th year students passed to the Shield . We had to make a Haiku describing ourselves && make an article about our Highschool life :)

To be frank , I was quite confident in the thought of making Haikus . Besides , they are only 5-7-5 . When I had my ballpen && paper all ready , that`s the time I realized I couldn`t easily make one . A Haiku is too short for me to describe myself . Only a total of 17 syllables is allowed . && so , I took much of my time thinking of what to put in my Haiku . I was beginning to doubt myself at that time . Hmmm...

I also got "nonsensical" during that time . I mean I thought of stupid Haikus . I guess it was because of the fact that Marc Fortes && Jikko Fernandez were sitting behind me && kept on telling kornii jokes && making stupid Haikus too XD .

After much thinking , I finally made a Haiku ! I made two actually :

"The sunset is clear

I am pretending again

But my friends are here"

and

"I am here standing

With love as my anti-drug

&& smiles as my masks"

Awwwe . So much for doubting myself ;]

The only problem now is my article . Uh oh XD

poem: Simply You .

I made this poem waaaaay back when I was in 2nd year . I surprisingly found my poem notebook && saw this certain poem . I suddenly thought that I should post it here in my blog . So here it is :

Twirl me in this delusion

Spin me in a breathless dance

Your tantalizing eyes

Hypnotize me in a glance

Charm me as you will

Voices whisper in my ear

Let the moonlight shine down on us

Your heartbeat so near

Your eyes on me

Dance with me, my dream

For I might lose you

&& my roses will not have petals

Untie me from the chain I once had

&& twirl me once more. .

Would you come closer ?

Leaving me breathless again ?..

--To Hallway guy once more--

In other news :

I was glad Ahnia Deqs [ Dequiña ] && I had an "emo talk" or a heart-to-heart in YM . I was glad I told him everything..&& I thank him for giving me respect when I was in "eMo Mode" . I knew he understood me [ just like a big bro should ] && I `m happy cuz of that . He never judged me for what I felt or what I told him [ Well , maybe he DID judge me . but I think he was just fooling around , as he always does XD ] He understood me more && vice versa . Now I know I`m not the only one dealing with "numb people" in life..... Toink .

To Ahnia Deqs , thank you so much , BAI :P

song: Sweet Maria by Chicosci ♥

Sweet Maria ~ Chicosci

Bless this night
I`m entering the fold
With everything to lose
Let me be ready for the end
With both guns blazing
Nothing can stop this war tonight
And you`ll be my shelter
Your suicide kisses will be mine

Sweet maria,
Guide these bullets in the air
Beautiful clash, I`m a blinded fool again
Now I`ll be cut and bruised
My love, will break on through my neck
My landmines valentine
These silver bullets will open your eyes
And I`ll be here, breathing
Your suicide kisses will be mine

Sweet maria,
Guide these bullets in the air three more in the chamber && I send
Sweet maria,
Grace this moment hear my prayer

I feel you beside me
Touch me, I tremble
My final dance,
This means everything,
Everything to me

These silver bullets will open your eyes
And I`ll be here, breathing
Your suicide kisses will be mine

Sweet maria,
Guide these bullets in the air three more in the chamber && I send
Sweet maria,
Grace this moment hear my prayer. .

"If only you would let me to,
I could be your sweet Maria. ."♥♥
-- Macaroonie to hallway guy.

I was searching for songs in imeem.com [as I always do] , then I found this song . I already heard this before but I just realized the impact of this song to me . I hope you guys will like it too . I know I do ;]

poem: It Seems that I Do .

Out on the crowded ballroom floor
A sea of bloody red && endless exchanges of "Hello"
A flash of black suddenly came from the door
As the fast-paced music turned mellow

Seemingly oblivious to the surroundings around me
To those blue-eyed couples dancing in rhythm
Feeling unwanted && invisible as I sit here
With my heart screaming words that no one seems to listen

Ah yes , I pretend to feel you`re not there
Your black-ish essence will never be mine
But still , I want to listen to the intricate speeches of your hair
&& to know all the words we`ll redefine

A thousand lightyears are tearing us apart
&& therein lies the irony
We will never know how or when to start
But it`s plain to see for everybody
That you && I are meant to be

Although my vast darkness while never see your white radiance
I will never tell you lies
&& while I sat, drowning in hopes && thoughts. . .
You simply asked me to dance .
Whoa...

11. . . .14 && 23 ;]

Emotions emotions emotions emotions emotions .

11.10.07
-- feverish yet inspired . LOL .

This.is.Not.Here :x

Dear Ignorance,

Am I simply not doing things right ? By now , I should have met the "real" him . But no .. Not even close to that . I guess I`ll just leave that up to my wildest dreams . Hey, a girl like me can still dream right ? :-/

It`s great that he && I have some form of communication with each other . But he who is uber friendly && nice suddenly became lackadaisical towards me . I just can`t understand what made him have a change of heart . How deeply && terribly ironic . -____-

Some, no actually A LOT of people ask me this question when I tell who 'he' is: "WHY HIM?" I would just laugh && say something totally out of the topic . But deep inside , I ALSO ask that to myself...

"Why him?": the question that is resounding in my mind for nearly a month now . I guess I`ve learned how to accept a person for who he is.. Not just for physical appearance but for his personality . I like him as a whole , even though I haven`t gotten into the depths of his heart && mind .

He isn`t like the other guys I`ve been with in the past . He isn`t shallow . I know he is a complex guy , && I like that . He is like a riddle or a puzzle that I want to solve... So mysterious .

But no , I`m not in love . I`ll wait for the right time to tell him all of this . I don`t think I could say all of this to him when he just looks at me but does not recognize me.... So screw irony ! [haha]

Thanks for listening && understanding . It isn`t normal for me to feel something like this... But what the hell .

Love,

Macaroonie.

To 'him' [wherever yoo are]: If you`re reading this........ Thanks..

*Time finished: 11.35 AM .

*Date: 11.08.07.

In Sanity :P

I AM IN SANITY .

This is what my friend, Maiikx, always tells me . I am SANE , at last . lol :D
Although I had quite a weird dream last night o.O:

I was assigned to spy on the Military Police during C.A.T. time . I wrote my observations on some notepad . Then it was time for the M.P.`s to form . I gave my critics && I was hella mad at them [I dunno why] . I even recited the 11 General Orders to them at that time ! [Waw , I still can remember all of them. . in my sleep XD] && then I gave some M.P. 20 push-ups or something like that. .Then I don`t remember anything else XD

Haha . Weird , ain`t it ? I dunno why I dreamt of something like that. .
but oh yes ,

I AM STILL IN SANITY .

Hmm , my feet my tired from wearing my combat shoes nearly the whole day . Ma`am Canencia && I [after the C.A.T. meeting] were wearing our black officer`s shirt , pants && then our combat shoes . We were like equestrians looking for our horses in the Ateneo building . lol XD

BUT STILL , I AM IN SANITY .

haha . just go figure :D

Anesthesia :]

I was sleeping very, very soundly last night.. Then a sound interrupted my peaceful rest:
*"Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret.
Somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name"~ ♫
My alarm just went off [6.00am] . Damn it .
Opening my heavily lidded eyes , I thought: "Wasn`t I sleeping about 4 hours ago ? Felt only like minutes ."
I groggily stood up && stifled a yawn . I looked around my room . But I didn`t absorb anything . I was still in "Hangertz mode" lol XD

Then , I grabbed my towel && some other stuff && headed towards my bathroom...
School mode once more . tsk .

When I arrived in Ateneo , I was like a zombie walking && climbing towards my classroom. . o.O
Felt like I had taken drugs or something XD
Especially when we had that Drug/Gangsterism talk. . . lol :]

Hai . I`m still in a hangover cuz of that long loooooong sembreak . Woot~
I ended "my first school day" with our Emergency Meeting. .woooh . C.A.T. tomorrow ! Type B once more XD
Someone probably gave me anesthesia when I was asleep :]
Oh well .
School mode na pud si Jami ! :P -at least I got to see hallway guy again :D-
*Quite the irony ain`t it ? I`m still hung up over the sembreak but hallway guy makes me want to go to school . lol :x Whatev , Jam o.O*


[yawyaw na pud ko ! oh yeah XD]
*That song is But It`s Better If You Do by Panic! At the Disco
Happy Birthday d.i to Alexis Nico Sorongon de Manuel :) 11.05.07 ^^

An Overcast Sky .

I turned one-six on this day .
for short , I am in my sweet SIXTEENTH year . [ or was it for LONG ? lol ]

I can already feel the "oldiness" XD

newaii ,
i wanna thank the following people [in general] for greeting me && making my birthday brighter :D

1. My FAMILY
2. My Cousins
3. My BB FAMILY
4. 3-in-1 / Mga sis ko !
5. Corps of Officers / COCC - 01
6. Classmates [ 4 - Gonzaga `07 - `08]
7. Batchmates [ ka.4th year ]
8. Headquarters Battalion [ Military Police , Non Commissioned Officers && Medics ]
9. 3 - Canisius `06 - `07
10. Some Juniors [ 3rd years && my cadets ]
11. Friends from Stella Maris Academy
12. My TRALALA FAMILY [ Ateneo College :p ]
13. SKETCHOWZ TEAM
14. My Expository Status ! ♥
15. 1st year college students from San Pedro College / Ateneo College
16. and lastly. . . . G O D ♥♥

`twas a nice birthday :D

[ don`t forget about NOVEMBER 3 , umkai ? haha XD]

Although I didn`t mention names above , I really thank the people who greeted me on this day :]

You might be wondering why my title for this blog post is "An Overcast Sky" .

It is because. .every year , during my birthday , IT ALWAYS RAINS . But now , I don`t see one when I look up to the sky :D

That`s all for now [ again ]

Happy Birthday to Me. . ~