If You Get There Before I Do...

Awwe . This is a nice copy + paste bulletin I got from Pol Labang . Weh :D

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923

Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me

He said, "Boy, you might not understand,but a long, long time ago,

Grandma's daddy didn't like me none,

but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and runaway together

Get married in the first town we came to and live forever

But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead

I found this letter, and this is what it said:

"If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see

And between now and then

Til I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away

In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray

I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years

But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see
And between now and then

Til I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love, Me."

-- M i R a i

[ pata pata pata pon ! XD ]

Never Ending, Uhm.. Endings .

Woosh . I haven`t written in my blog for quite some time now . So here are some updates :

Throwing Away My Army Greens ?
To summarize everything up , the Ateneo High school had the Joint Scouting && CAT Closing Ceremony last Friday , March 14, 2oo8 . It meant that us officers had graduated && is free of our duties . Weh XD

The fun came after the ceremony . Us officers had our "salu-salo" / get together . We had a program full of "performances" && award giving . The best performance was from the guy officers . They danced the Soulja Boy && had "joke time" . Haha . Every officer was given an award .. Mine was "San Pedro`s award" / "St. Peter`s award" . Kudos to Sir Lactaoen for that @_@

But although I`m ecstatic that I finally have no more responsibilities in CAT [ as if I have a really tiring job , I`m only the 2nd Battalion`s S1 XD ] , I will really miss all the moments us officers had together . Through all the one hour or more in attention , memories as trainees , all the corrective measures we`ve received , all the wounds we received [ Silent Drill haha ] , or whatnot , I thoroughly enjoyed every moment . COCC-01 [ minus two ] has finally graduated . Woohoo ! But I don`t think Imma through my army greens just yet ;]]
* an end to CAT *


No More Gossip For Me
I just finished watching all of the Gossip Girl episodes of Season 1 . Ugh , I want Season 2 to start already ! Haha [:
* an end to watching my favorite TV Series *


Checklist.. Err , check ?
I found my personal checklist awhile ago while I was rummaging through my cabinet [ I was finding my poem notebook ] . This is what was in it :

• Survive Filipino shooting
• Finish Investigatory project Powerpoint
• Type Minutes
• Finish && do good on the last seven exams of your High school life
• Clear your Clearance
• Graduate!!! :x

Uhh . Only two things are not checked yet , the last two items on my list . Wooosh , graduation .. April 5, 2oo8 . Weh .
* an end to checklists *


It Spreads Like Poison ! :0

Shit . The virus in my PC must have really spread cuz my PC`s all busted . Damn . Does that mean I won`t be having those summer days without sleeping , just playing ? w00t . Now that would really....suck -___-"
But we have a family technician who`s really good at this stuff && I wanna learn from him [ Go Kuya Mark ! XD ] . I learned how to do hard drive to hard drive data transfer cuz of him . Kewl XD

I just found out that my motherboard`s dead . Damn . The motherboard`s heating too much && stuff . Tsk . I must really take care of my PC after it`s repaired again @_@
* an end to my "healthy" PC *

Woops . Clarification. .
For everyone`s clarification , I`m not hating Mr. Ebony or whatever he calls himself in my previous blogpost [ The Paramore song ] . I actually posted it for my friend who hates her ex boyfriend . So I got caught in between . Woosh .

Actually , my song for Mr. Ebony right now is Miracle! by Paramore .
Lyrics that I can truly relate to~ :

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you && I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill my fears
But have I told you, have I

* an end to some people`s understanding *


That`s all for now .
Imma abstain from using the PC for during this Holy Week . w00t .
Imma also be offline during Black Saturday && Easter Sunday .
My family && cousins are going to have our annual overnight .
Weh :D

Hope everyone has a blessed holy week†

-- M i R a i
[ 22 ♥ ]

song: That`s What You Get

Lalala~ The title is self-explanatory . Eat yer words ! Lol .

Hatred is seeping in my circulatory system. . like blood . Sweet blood~

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It`s your turn, so take a seat we`re settling the final score.
&& why do we like to hurt so much?

I can`t decide
You have made it harder just to go on
&& why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That`s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That`s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
&& that`s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you`re not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here. [ so damn true ]
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn. [ I already did ]
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
&& that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

-- M i R a i
[ that`s what you get ]

In A Third Person XD

My friend is friggin` weird . She told me that I answer this survey using her && her boyfriend`s love story . IDK why @_@
But still , I did it . I love that friend .
*cough* :D

NOTE AGAIN THAT THE ANSWERS ARE NOT MINE . IT`S MY FRIEND`S .
*cough* XD

Basics
Name: ***** **** ***** ****** [ exact letter count ]
Age: 16
Hair color: black
Eye color: brownish black
Height: about 5'5" ?? @_@
Build: lean . hahaha XD

The Beginning
How did you two meet?
-- our "common friend/s" introduced us XD

How long did you know each other before you became official?
-- about a month . haha ! but I`ve known him by name since I was in 2nd year . He knew my first name when he was in 1st year . Then my full name , last year . toink ! XD

Who asked who?
-- he did (:

And how did you/he do it?
-- he did something on V.day . awwwe :]]

How did you know he liked you?
-- he told me directly . but at first , indirectly . haha ! XD

Now
How long have you been together?
-- almost two weeks (:

When and where was your first date?
-- February 15, 2oo8 . at SM . haha :]]

How about first kiss?
-- secret ! at the HS canteen . LOL :))

What do you two usually do together?
-- pinch each other`s tummies and bite each other ! rawr ! =3

How often do you get together?
-- almost everyday (:

Or call/text/IM each other?
-- almost everyday (:

Do your parents know about him, and does his know about you?
-- my parents don`t know -___- but his dad && cousins do ! hehe :D

How have your friends reacted?
-- they were fine with it (:

When You're Together
Does he hold your hand?
-- yesh ^^

Make you smile and laugh?
-- of course ! :D

Does he tickle you?
-- YES @_@

Does he steal kisses?
-- sometimes :]]

Is he shy about PDA (public displays of affection)?
-- not really . but I am. .sorta XD

Describe how he looks at you:
-- like I`m the only girl in the world . ai . hahaha :D

Do you ever have to initiate the flirting?
-- not really XD

When you're with him, how does he make you feel?
-- something in my heart stirs.. but I can`t understand it . but it`s a really good feeling . waaaa XD


Other Things
How does he dress?
-- very well . he knows how to dress like a true guy ;]]

How does he smell?
-- so goooooood . his smell is addicting XD

Does he have any distinguishing features (facial features, piercings, etc)?
-- braces ! haha :D

What things do you two have in common?
-- we are both music addicts , bums , gamers , guitarists . . && did we mention we both love each other ? haha ! [:

Is he a gentleman?
-- oh ieah ^^

Does he offer to pay for things?
-- almost always but I decline XD

Have you gotten any gifts yet?
-- uh huh ! during V.day && prom night :]]

Does he have any nicknames for you?
Or you for him?
-- he for me : MJ , sslave . haha .
me for him : Spidey , MM . haha XD

Has he done anything significant for you?
-- everything he does to me ! haha :D

What have you done for him?
-- hmmmmm . being a nuisance to him . being loyal to him ! XD

What is his most attractive physical feature?
-- face . haha ! XD braces :]]

Describe his tastes in music, movies, books, etc.:
-- music ? he likes hiphop , house && rock .
movies ? he loves 3oo ! XD
books ? he doesn`t read much XD

What are his friends like?
-- his friends are my friends too . haha [:


In The Times to Come
How long do you think this will last?
-- as long as we live . waaaaaaaa XD

Do you think you'll get annoyed with him?
-- i sometimes do but it`s ok . haha :D

Do you think you love him, and does he love you?
-- hell ieah :]]

If he proposed, would you marry him?
-- op cors XD

Would you look forward to growing old him?
-- uh huh ^^

What's really in the future for you two?
-- idk . but I`m sure there will be bumps ahead for both of us . but we can do this together [:

-- M i R a i
[ booboo ^^ ]

Back To BASSics .

* back to BASSics :D

* we love you RV [ Kua Rendz` lil bro ] !! -- Ate Jam && Ate Arvi *

* our "Pic of the night" *
[ Marc Fortes , Arvi Calma , Jam Martinez && Harry Kilat ] XD

Whappow ! I became a "bassist" again when my classmates && I made a composition for our Music subject [ It was our project ] . My groupmates wanted me to play the bass but then the last time I played the bass was about two years ago [ @_@ ] . Anyway , I learned how to play it again . Weh . I didn`t realize I missed playing it . w00t .

Frankly speaking , I had fun making our composition . My first position in our band [ called Soul Aim *So Lame* ] was the lyricist . Then I became the lyricist && the bassist . Sad to say , I didn`t get to play the bass during the recording of our compo T_T

Anyway , my groupmates && I just made our compo in a matter of two days or even less [ XD ] . I am proud to say I made the first two stanzas of the song . BTW , our compo is entitled "Greatest Game" [ or was it "Moving Forward" ? ] . Either of the two XD

Through all the sweat , lack of sleep && hunger , we came up with the compo . Weh . We even circled all of Illustre [ here in Davao ] just to find a recording studio . That happened last Sunday && we were supposed to study for the exams at that time [ @_@ ] . But everybody sacrificed just to finish our project . Weh ! :D

My group members BTW are :
Lean Arcena [ lead / rhythm / bass guitar / drums ]
Laurice Arizola [ piano / lyricist ]
Arvi Calma [ photographer ? XD / sponsor ]
Patrick Derecho [ lead guitar ]
Marc Fortes [ melody "finder" / guitar / lyricist ]
Harry Kilat [ vocals ]
Jam Martinez [ lyricist / bass guitar ]
Reanne Ramos [ vocals ]
Danna Simangan [ lyricist / lead guitar ]
Rendell Tagalog [ sponsor / lead / bass guitar / drums ]

I love you guys ! XD

Topmost picture credits :
photographer = Arvi Calma .
photo editor = Yours Truly (:
bass guitar = Danna Simangan .
place where it was taken = Kua Rendz` house :D

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In other news......

To everyone out there , please vote for Ma`am Fondevilla / Terza for Ms. Teen Philippines on this site :
http://msteenphils.com/candidate.php

Thank You !!! :D

-- M i R a i .
[ greatest game. . ]

song : She Cries

*sigh* . I remember one solitary afternoon with a close friend of mine [ BTW , this happened a year ago ] . She took out && turned on her iPod && offered me one of the earphones . She scrolled her myriad of songs && pressed "Play" on a particular song . It was this song .

On that afternoon , her boyfriend just broke up with her...without any particular reason . We both cried on that day . Whappow . I just wanna share this song . It`s pretty cool . Enjoii...

She Cries ~ Rufio
Gone again she said
heading for the longest road
One too many times
He's beaten you down to the bone

So you sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
All alone
Just stay away
Stay away

Weakened from the pain
that he left inside your heart
Fallin' in the rain
cause your whole life has fall'n apart

So you sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
All alone
Just stay away

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

See this is real
She doesn't feel
Lonely hearts
Shattered dreams
There's nothing better in this place
Nothing but memories
in your mind

Sail away
into the unknown
Stay away he said
Don't ever come back home
Cry away
the days that last so long
On the road
you sail away

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

Alone, she cries
Filled with hate inside
No love, no life
Without that loser who once said
"Here's your kiss goodbye"

[Note: There is probably another version of this song with the words "Lose that hate inside" instead of "Filled with hate inside"]

Last two exams tomorrow . *sigh*

-- M i R a i .
[ almost done playing the greatest game ever played :( ]

Oh . Hahaha .

Well , the story of why I have a picture like that is quite simple [ && common actually ] . Boredom IS the root cause of all things ! Lol . Anyway...

I was hella bored while waiting for Gossip Girl to load [ I don`t download , I just watch videos off teh net@_@ ] . I was surfing around Friendster then I saw my Dash 1 [ Sheila Son ] `s primary photo . It was our picture during the prom . She "edited" the pic to make it look like a magazine [ Seventeen ] . I knew where she edited that picture && I went to that site . I edited another picture *below* from that site , magmypic.com . So out of boredom , the picture above came out too . Lol XD

*o2.29.o8*
[ at Kuya Rendz` house ( their music room ) .
music project making .
:D ]

-- M I R A I .
[ still stressed T_T ]

Manipulation .

MANIPULATION [ va ]

Etymology:

back-formation from manipulation, from French, from manipuler to handle an apparatus in chemistry, ultimately from Latin manipulus

1: to treat or operate with or as if with the hands or by mechanical means especially in a skillful manner
2 a: to manage or utilize skillfully
b: to control or play upon by artful, unfair, or insidious means especially to one's own advantage
3: to change by artful or unfair means so as to serve one's purpose


Ugh . You`re such a manipulative little b**** .
You only think about your damn fugly self . To tell you the truth , your friends are just being plastic to you . && to think you`re the puppet master of this show huh ? You ain`t fooling anyone .

Just letting out my anger on someone.......

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I`m hella stressed right now . My Senior life is in the brink of killing me [ lol ] . Projects , projects , projects galore ! Whappow .

BTW , goodluck to all Ateneo de Davao Senior students this Wednesday . w00t .

song of this week && next week :




" Stress suppressed in the process..
Now I`m here && it seems like the clock is ticking
I want to hide under my bed cuz I feel like I`m bleeding
My anger under my fear cuz I feel like exploding
&& the rest of me under my sleeves cuz I feel like dying
My tears are drifting from my eyes but I`m giggling
I`m now inside this bubble && everything is vibrating
I don`t know if I`d still be coming out cuz I think I like it better here lying
But I know I have to keep on living so I could come back here more often... "

*sigh* . Oh my Senior Life~

-- M I R A I .
[ stressed .. ]