This.is.Not.Here :x

Dear Ignorance,

Am I simply not doing things right ? By now , I should have met the "real" him . But no .. Not even close to that . I guess I`ll just leave that up to my wildest dreams . Hey, a girl like me can still dream right ? :-/

It`s great that he && I have some form of communication with each other . But he who is uber friendly && nice suddenly became lackadaisical towards me . I just can`t understand what made him have a change of heart . How deeply && terribly ironic . -____-

Some, no actually A LOT of people ask me this question when I tell who 'he' is: "WHY HIM?" I would just laugh && say something totally out of the topic . But deep inside , I ALSO ask that to myself...

"Why him?": the question that is resounding in my mind for nearly a month now . I guess I`ve learned how to accept a person for who he is.. Not just for physical appearance but for his personality . I like him as a whole , even though I haven`t gotten into the depths of his heart && mind .

He isn`t like the other guys I`ve been with in the past . He isn`t shallow . I know he is a complex guy , && I like that . He is like a riddle or a puzzle that I want to solve... So mysterious .

But no , I`m not in love . I`ll wait for the right time to tell him all of this . I don`t think I could say all of this to him when he just looks at me but does not recognize me.... So screw irony ! [haha]

Thanks for listening && understanding . It isn`t normal for me to feel something like this... But what the hell .

Love,

Macaroonie.

To 'him' [wherever yoo are]: If you`re reading this........ Thanks..

*Time finished: 11.35 AM .

*Date: 11.08.07.